black inside out

OMG!!!

2006-09-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

confused?

2006-09-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

ever since Ryan introduced it...
i've been doing nearly nothing but watching
SOUTH PARK!!!!
click on it... link ya to my fave episode.

here's my very own south park character!!! wheee

anyways, i'm wasting my life away again...
DAMNED "holidays"
made me lose my hardworking-ness =/

here's a sneak peek of what i do as i rot at home =D

TATA!!!

marcus must die

2006-09-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!! my real post!
(psst marc, i knew you were anticipating it)

but wait!!! let's first talk about what i did today ok!!! =D

.... i did nothing!!! ^^
no lah :P
i went to watch JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE with Mess and Ting.S
FUCKING FUNNY show.
MUST WATCH!

i mean... so much for the bastard John Tucker was.
but in the end, he was really sweeeet.
*awes*
i mean. how could you bear to destroy someone like this hottie?

Anyways, prelim's coming to an end.
been really bored these few days
i had some lame chats with friends which ideally led to this entry. =D

LOL.

Marcus was sending me some pictures from his trip to the zoo! =D

now, children!!! i have a story to tell...
gather around me dammit!

There was once a little zebraman called Marcus Koh.
and the poor thing got kicked out of its herd.
and was homeless...sad...and cold!

He thought he'd live on the Zebra-crossing of roads.
but it was too dangerous and he almost got ran over twice.

Then, one day he chanced by some zoo-zebras
and asked if he could join em

But they looked down on him, as he was neither zebra nor man.
poor Marcus was sad and lonely.
but he did not give up!

.... so, he went to seek Kevin and his puppy Blue for help.
and got featured in Nickelodeon's most HOTTEST show!!!

so off Kevin and Blue set off.
and they found a place for Marcus

BUT IT WAS A TOILET BOWL!!!
(as you clever little kids can clearly see)

So off they went again.
and found a nice little virtual world.

Little Marcus was DELIGHTED!!!
He thanked Kevin and Blue and off he went..
..bravely killing mushrooms and snails until he finally came upon a maple zoo.
Where he found other zebras as retarded as he was.

and he live HAPPILY EVER AFTER...
...i think =/

[THE END]

(psst..marc,
i know you said you were gonna voodoo me if i were to really post these.
but you know you CANT hate me =D.
im MAY!)
and guess what?

HA!

class tee

2006-09-21T20:37:00.000+08:00

first things first.

4E's CLASS TEE.

i know its a little late now. But Peien's sudden enthu-ness sparked everything again =]

the front.

the back.

idea solely originated by Pei En.
minor stupid changes made by me ^^
contact me or Peien if you have anything to say.

smile

2006-09-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

fuck. i sprained my ankle at school after exams today.

OUCH!

E-maths paper was alright.
Surprisingly, i feel that My Goh's paper was HARDER.
omg?

SMILE

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile,
yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

holyCRAP

2006-09-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

heh... woke up today "realizing" its less than 2 months to the big 'O's and well, 24hours to the pre'O's.

last day of holydays. "hooray"...
anyways, the following entry is plain annoying random booshit.
i give you the right to not scroll unless you're a good friend of mine. =D

i present to you
EXPRESSIONS OF A REGULAR TEENAGE ASSHOLE DRAMA QUEEN
directed and acted out by May herself =.=

Starting off with my daily

sorry guys im late

Now, you should always know the difference between a sheepish (the above) smile
and a "how do i tell you i flushed your cat down the toilet bowl" smile

See? the same actions means different things sometimes.
like for example this is

"gosh! i think you're SO CUTE!"

while this would mean you're already dead.

POW!

BORRRRRING!!!!

"oops, i just farted"

Anyways, on a daily basis, when messiah bullies me like he ALWAYS does.

"it's NOT FAIR!"

And then, there're times when i lose my things, like example

"WAAA...my wallet T.T"

Sometimes, May likes being a total asshole

"geesh! omg, would you look at that LOSER"

And then she goes around playgrounds scaring little kids

GRRR!!!!
just kidding.

And if you're my friend, and you really want me to eat a piece of durian pie
ONLY because you baked it especially for me not knowing how gross i think durian is.
i'll be like

"Oh.......alright =/"

Because im sucha NICE friend =D
thank you very much

"I know im the best =]"

OH SHIT! look at the time.. i really should be gettin to tuition already!!!
AAAHHH!!!!

"im late AGAIN!"

-THE END-

GRRRRRR!!!!!

2006-09-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

[CAUTION!]
the following entry is unreasonably extremely vulgar

WHAT the hell.

today woke up really late.
then went westmall's mac to study on my own.
cus i was gonna catch LITTLE MAN with Mess, CS, TS and GQ at like 9pm.

Then CS came first, so we were like "oh hey! let's go arcade and wait instead!"
so yeah, we like went arcade.
and i was like tellin myself "no May, DONT go to the para para machine."
but the games there totally sucks.
then CS wanted to play this gayshyt robot shooting thingy.
so i thought "fuck it, lemme play one round of my gay parapara".
and then i left my wallet on CS's laps while he was playing (actually i left it on my bag which was on his laps).

Just then, GQ stepped in while i was playing.
he went to disturb CS...
then bla bla bla~...
then we left to buy movie tickets for Mess & TS first.
Only at the counter did i remembered my wallet was not with me.
so i asked CS, but he had no idea it was with him too.
so he rushed back to arcade to help me find.
the good news? i got my wallet back
the bad news? 40+ bucks fucking gone. just like that.
FUCK. WHY DOES SHIT KEEP HAPPENING.

i tried my best to blame CS, so that i can make myself feel better.LOL
but i couldnt, cus it was my bad.
im always so fucking careless and clumsy with my stuff.
dammit.
thank god i got the wallet back.
if it had been gone too, i'd feel so lousy i'd prolly cry =[
cus its a bafday prezzie from my besties =/

AND TO YOU!
Mr/Ms/Mrs steal-money-from-an-innocent-16-years-old-girl.
THANK YOU for not taking the whole thing.
and FUCK YOU and your whole fucking family for taking my money.
fucking whore.
i curse your mother get raped by dog,
your sister to get run over by MRT
your brother to fall from 25 floors
your father to land in woodbridge mental hospital.
and you wouldnt want to me go further into your family tree yet. >=D

THERE! i feel so much better now =]

stay off my lawn!!!

2006-09-07T02:10:00.000+08:00

arrgh. its like. 2am now?
and im feeling rather, no, i mean, REALLY sick.
i think i've come down with sth.
my throat hurts like fuck, almost on the verge of bleeding T.T
i keep sneezing T.T
and my nose is blocked T_T.

today (which is technically YESTERDAY, but whatever, you know wad i mean), i stayed home all day. Playing computer (Auditions)...
then i got really hungry.
but i was lazy to go down buy food... so i thought, i'd COOK my own meal today =X
Messiah keeps saying all i can cook were eggs, hotdogs, instant noodle, rice, and his ugly lookin milk-prawn.
i thought i'd make me PASTA =D!!!
it tasted like... i dunno =/...okok, fine, it SUCKED >=/
IF im gettin a boyfriend, he must DEFINITELY know how to cook, goodness sake.

Tuesday went town with Gay, Soon, and Haris... caught "MONSTER HOUSE" .. i think its really good, nice story line.
then while Messiah went around on his shoppin spree.
i led the other two to Mac Cafe to wait for Mess, we were spose to study =.=
Then Mess finally arrived from his major shopping, den we "studied" til like, 9? and then Soon n Haris left... Mess n i took 106 home from orchard..
Actually, i think my throat was already startin to hurt by then. geesh.

Well, tomorrow (which is technically today-.-), i need to be at complex by 12, we'll be swimming...
After that, go Kfc to mug.
PRELIMS.arrgh...God, saaave meeee.

something gay ^^

2006-08-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

Reformat your hearing device[MP3s and such]
and add "in my pants" at the end of the titles of the first 10 songs

1-Island In The Sun...in my pants [LOLMAO]

2-Back Once Again...in my pants [OMG.]

3-Dirty Little Secret...in my pants [cheeky shit sia =.=]

4-Pon De Replay...in my pants [turn the music up =D ]

5-You Are So Last Summer...in my pants ["boys like you are a dime a dozen' she said"]

6-I'm A Fool...in my pants [makes no sense =/ ]

7-Slipped Away... in my pants [ =__=]

8-I Would Die For You...in my pants [die in my pants -.- ]

9-Pure Shores...in my pants [ "is a place i can call mine" LOL]

10-I'm So Sick...in my pants [ "i will.....BREAAKKK!!!" ]

5 people to do this.
MessiahGAY
LAUkaryin
JenmeyNG
DollyTAY
BrianCHIONG

up to yall la actually =/

Pen and Needles

2006-08-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

BREAKING UPDATE-
TEST YOUR COLOUR VISION WITH THIS SIMPLE FUN GAME! =D
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/vision.php

just a little something i came up with,
CUS IM LIKE SO TA-LENT-ED
nah, im just bored =.=
inspired by a song,
but purely original except the line "love's just an excuse to get hurt" =D

and the thing bout updating only on weekends?
IM SUCHA BOOSHITTER!
HATE ME! =D

stare into the mirror,
will u ever see
your reflection's everything...
everything you hated to be

go ahead
make those fake stands
but now they dont mean a thing
endless contradictions ; and its superficial
facaded smile and empty vows
is all you are now

take a step
fall back down
and cry out loud
that you're tired
confused, lost, broken
and say it again...
just a little bit louder now

but all's never that true
all is a screenplay
and you'd play the angel
i'd be the devil
i'd rip your shining wings
and tear the mask off of you

be the friend ; be the foe
or be another tell-tale ho'
love's just an excuse to get hurt
and hurt's the reason you say you bleed
bleed your tears away
"i'll die another day" - you'd say

you're back at the mirror
been years now
your blood still sheds
are you human yet?
"i'll be, yeah, somehow"

its purely general,
but but but
if anyone's feeling like im shooting you...
Why?? =/
are you GUILTY? =O
(i so totally love mind-play.HEH)
chill =]

Oh yeah, i had a haircut together with Mess today.
I think the way i'm havin it cut, it's gonna be evolving back to the old hair sooner or later...
like, oh wow, HOORAY. >=/

ASSHOLE sia may

2006-08-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

"ASSHOLE sia May... say what, last entry.
Then now? Pop out one more entry out of nowhere"

LOL
okay okay, i would have to be like NUTS to completely deprive myself of the wonderful invention called INTERNET?
so I'll limit myself to only weekends.
I WILL! =D

Anyways, yesterday i went to Marina to eat steamboat with Dolly, Melissa and Desmond (Dolly's little hyperactive crazy brother)
Went to catch the FIREWORKS after that with em and Shinhwee and Weicheng.
GAWD! oh-so-pretty!
but the crowd was fucked up, as in, it was larger than a Jaychou concert =O

after they left, waited for Brian Theo Lihao at Cityhall station, then waited for Dion...
Headed down to Westmall's mac to "chill" -.-
and there werent any 176 left so i borrowed cash from big B and took a cab home
>=/

And yesterday's yesterday (friday), went to catch MY SUPER EX-GF with Messi and Lauky =D
great show. oughta catch!
Now i've still got LADY IN THE WATER
ANT BULLY
LAKEHOUSE
TOKYO DRIFT to catch.
So many movies, so lil time, so lil money =(

My sister bought this korean movie "My Girl And I",
i think its quite sad.
and i really hearts the actress (the one from Full House as most would know as) , she's so FUCKING CUTE!

Here's why i think they look sooo alike

VS

hearts MinMawKunn

CRAZYbeautiful LASTentry

2006-08-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

not left with much to update bout for my birthday cus MESS had done it all! -.-

so here's just my summarized version of my sweet16 =D

anyways... before i begin
here's a screenshot of my classmate/friend's blog.

i mean if you're so desperately wanting to be ME.
do it properly sia, bitch -.-
anyways, IP checkers already gave me an idea of who you are... so yeah, back off.
im just friendly for peace's sake. =D

Anyways, Messiah more or less planned the whole thing for me =D
i know we both are always bickering. but i seriously do hearts him.
asshole or not asshole =P

Messiah and Tingsheng chose all my presents -
a wallet (a very pretty one)
a hair band (bohemian-ish)
handphone thingy (PURPLE!)
and Tingsheng got me a BLEACH anime lighter (classy indeed =D)

we went to SENTOSA...
Choonsoon woke up late but he caught up with us anyways.
Guoquan came last min, but yeah, he stayed at there de Coffeebean to do his DNT
(damn touched..LOL)

We just took hell alot of pictures and some dumb videos...hahaah
i wasnt SUPPOSED to be the only one in a bikini. -.-

Mess dug his own "grave" which was meant for ME actually...HA! HA!

Everyone admires Choon's UN-TAN-ABLE bod!

and the amateurs gave a pose =D

and i accidentally SQUEEZED jenmey's boobs =P

after washing up, snaping a pic is just irresistable

Guoquan became so white -.- cus he never sun-ed for a long time le hahaa

We rushed back to JE to get my cake and catch MY SUPER-EX GIRLFRIEND
Karyin Peixin and Dolly could not make it at last min, and since Carol n Jen n Cs had to go home too, the movie was cancelled

before blowing out my candles on my CHOCO-cake

we are ALL LOVELY... enough to make you jealous, eh bitch?

then we went to hit the arcade, play HOUSE OF DEAD 4
(omg, im gettin addicted to it, damn you Choon! )
when it was time to go and arcade was closing, i realized my new wallet was LOST!
i fretted and begged the lady ask me go back inside to check.
it wasnt there i almost wanted to cry while CS n GQ tried to help me find.
turned out it was with Teresa, who was already on a cab home -.-

The rest of the guys and i went to KFC to eat.
headed home after that.
[total birthday sms - 31]
i LITERALLY "count my blessings" =D
LOVE YALL!!

Today spose to go tuition,
but met up wif Haris to eat then we went to find Choon and Siqi at library -.-
we 4 headed to Pizzahut to grrab a bite.
Went to CS house to "STUDY" but its impossible when you have a May+Haris combo ard..LOL

Hmmm, so i shall end here,
Mom'll be keepin the cable soon.
so i guess, this is finally the last entry.

Dont miss me =P...i'll be back! HA!

when enough just aint enough

2006-08-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

its OFFICIAL. I AM SIXTEEN.
Pardon me and my lame classmates :P

Taken a picture naked>> nah

Made out with a member of the same sex>> i'd wish!

Danced in front of your mirror>> YES

Told a lie>> yes, im being honest that im lying...so am i lying?

Gotten in a car with people you just met>> prolly

Been in a fist fight>> primary school i guess

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back>> hell yeah

Been arrested>> hell no

Left your house without telling your parents>> hell yeah

Ditched school for something more fun>>went town with a friend o' mine -.-

Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex>> yes. no intercourse tho -.-

Seen someone die>> errr...TELEVISION! =O

Kissed a picture>> posed for pictures kissing picture

Slept in until 3 or later>> more than 24hours in one shot before =O

Been in a police car>> nah, but it'd be cool =D

Played dress up>> MANY *blush*

Fell asleep at work/school>> oh well...

Made out with a total stranger>> Nope.

Touched a snake>> Yup.

Ran a red light>> Yup.

Had detention>> Yup.

Been in a car accident>> dont think so =/

Pole danced>> nah...LOL

Sang karaoke>> hell YEAH.

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't>> def.

Laughed until you cried>> laughin at people laughin like me (mess, brian, dion -.-!!!)

Caught a snowflake with your tongue>> nah..

Kiss/ Kissed in the rain>> i'd wish!

Sang in the shower>> *blush*

Sat on a roof top>> carpark top floor with besties.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on>> hmmm... sea yes, pool no.

Been told that you're hot by a total stranger>> Yup.

Broke a bone>> come to think of it, i broke my sister's bone accidentally many a times before =/

Mooned/flashed someone>> hell NO.

Forgotten someone's name>> more than half of everyone i knew in primary school. and my own class some more!

Slept half-naked/ naked>> i think so. =/ so tired i dropped dead after drying myself up after shower.

Blacked out from drinking>> that's so gay -.-

Played a prank on someone>> yeahehee

Tag three people to do this:
messiahGAY
carolTANG
LAUkaryin

SINGAPURA~

2006-08-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

OH SINGAPURAAA~
Sunny Island...Set In Th..(REWIND~)

OMG, i just cant stop updating =O

Hey there island, you and i, we're turning 16 sweetie!!!
well, not YOU. just ME =/
and you've got your baby nation shootin fireworks for you.
and i'll be at Sentosa havin fun with my beloveds.

I JUST CANT HIDE IT!
IM SUPER DUPER HYPED BOUT TURNING 16.
And i'll be all like, "no lady, i INSIST you doublecheck my IC.. c'mon, you KNOW you WANT to =D"

Not only does it indicate im NC-16-able.
It also indicates a new doorway of freedom(cheesy but YES) opened up to me.
I've been waitin for 9th August 2006 since i was 13 years old.
FUCK YOU, FORTUNE TELLER!! HA!
I'll leave it for those who know to decide

ah well

2006-08-06T05:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN.
nc16 woots!
not it mattered too much, and yes SIXTEEN is NOT just a number! its SWEET...
so lets hope ya get wad ya asked for bro =]

i like TOTALLY missed the whole battle of the bands.
im an asshole friend :[
i missed my friends' biggest night ever yet.
anyways i went there just in time to hear the results only.
Issue 11 dint make it tru. but hey. WILDCARDS. gogogo!
LOL!

went to both Bri n Huijin's blog (sorry if the wood hit ya :[ )
here's some chain tingy.

3 things..
Three Names You Go By
-Triple M
-Monster
- MayMay (AAAHHH!!!)

Three Parts Of Your Heritage
-Burmese
-Chinese
-and more Burmese (AAAHHH!!!)

Three Things That Scare You
-BUGS
-Death
-MESSIAH GAY =O

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials
-Oxygen
-H2O
-Sunshine

Three Things You Are Wearing Right
-Clothes
-Specs
-Hairband

Three Things You Want In A Relationship
-Trust
-Click-a-bility
-VIBE

Two Truths And A Lie
(in respective order =D)
-I rock
-You suck
-I suck

Three Physical Things About The Opposite Sex That Attract You
-the EYES
-the HAIR
-the VOICE (i dont want no mickey mouse. would u?)

Three Of Your Favourite Hobbies
-Singin (like...DUH)
-Dancing =/
-Daydream

Three Things You Want Badly Now
-MOTIVATION TO WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING
-MOTIVATION TO STUDY MY ASS OFF
-Hot chocolate & a Hot guy...no wait, a Hot guy carryin hot chocolate...YUM! =D

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation
-USA (find shawn <3)
-Japan
-Myanmar? (OMG)

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die
-Live =/ (like...DUH)
-Be rich xD
-Start World War III

Three People I Would Like To See Take This Quiz
-MESSIAH GAY (im juz soooo bias =D)
-~~XIAO~~ LAU KARYIN
-JENMEY NG

chasing cars

2006-08-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

ohkay... so THAT (below) wasnt the LAST post after all. HOHOHO.
im givin myself an allowance of til right after my birthday?
and no no no, my determination aint flickering away.

Anyways, i forgot to mention that i rebonded my hair a few days ago.
i made a double mistake.
First was to rebond it
now i know that that i really really never wanted this at all.
WHY? OH WHY?
And then, becus i thought it was too FLAT, and i really dint like it.
i thought shampoo-ing my hair right away (when i was told not to), would make it better.
and OKAY. WOW. its fked up. REAL BAD now.

Ytd went to watch CLICK at JE with Mess and Choonsoon, den Tingsheng came later, we all waited for Teresa den finally went in.
it was a GREAT movie i guess.
damn funny and yet, also touching and moralizing, it made me n 3sa cry =O
... yall soooo have gotta catch it.

RISE AGAINST - Prayer Of The Refugee
"Don't hold me up now!
I can stand my own ground! ;
I don't need your help now!
You will bring me down down!"

here by my side?

2006-08-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

this might be MY LAST ENTRY, people.
for now, i guess.
but maybe i would wanna update bout my birthday too =/ ... after it is over, that is

hmm...i have so much i wanna say.
i think i've forgotten already!

OKAY. ALRIGHT. TODAY, i made an idiot out of myself in class today.
its not that i hate em or whatever, so please, dont make this a part of any gossip session, whoever you are.
its like - Friends, joke ard, make fun, bully.
sure thing.
but i guess, they were really overboard this time? :(
how could you have even tot of splitting the 3 of us apart for ur own entertainment sake?
god. nvm. forget it.past le

carrying on...
along with 6 other guys, i've dropped my Design And Technology subj.
spent hours inside principal's office with em, discussing things out with tchers
and making commitment promises to focus on our other subjects, if not school wont let us drop DNT
but it cant be helped, not at this point...
the proj's gotta be more or less done is less than a week's time, and we havent really done ANYTHING for fuck's sake.

and HONESTLY, i'm feelin really scared.
wad if i really do fuck up in my O lvls?
will i miss "graduation"?
will i have to repeat?
will i go ITE?
worst of em all was , will Mom be okay?

Basically i now have like 5 subjects left ONLY.
initially we had 7, dropped DnT, became 6.
and Chinese, which is over,
(other people can retake chinese at the end of year if they want,
but if i fail, i can only take CLB which is Basic Chinese, and it cant be used as an O Lvl Subject)
and among the 5 subjects left is COMBINED HUMANITIES... which im really bad at, as in REALLY REALLY bad... like 20 out of 100 at the MAX!

not tryin to be emo, but i think i might seriously end my life if i fail any one of my remaining 5 subject for O lvl.
AAAARRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!

i really need tu start studying...
if possible, TOTALLY NO COMPUTER for myself after my birthday.
i think i've played enough.
... i'll play more after i make tru this.
im sooo gonna need my dearesties help...pull me tru this.... i beg of you.
i need tu make this commitment.. i NEED to.

its just EMOTIONS

2006-07-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

its amazing how when shit happens,
it happens all at once.
and life becomes a test of ur endurance,
pushes your thoughts and feelings to a limit.
but at the end of the day... you become stronger.
and BEHOLD ; a FIGHTER!!

Here's an EMO-poem i made =]
its sooo gay, im sure u guys will like. cus i think everyone's gay. =/
"PARTY PARTY! LETS ALL BE GAY"

for all that i wont understand
all i trusted ; an illusion
now i know not where i stand
the facades they faded away.
deceptions ; and i've fallen today

never told apart the reality
harsh ; it is ; now i see
now i know you dont need me
soon you'll know why i'd bleed
then everyone will have something to say ;
and everything will get carried away
is there a reason i should stay?

straight from the heart
straight from my soul
i believed every **** i was told
but now i know, and soon you'll know
what's the end ; oh behold!
cause everyone's going away
and everything breaks someday

:(

2006-07-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

either you tell me what's wrong with my "songs" , lest i'd never know
or its your "taste" that changed,
or you're just being a lousy "audience" =/
ahahhahaaa

just go nameless

2006-07-29T13:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIXIN
(read this again on sunday ^^)

woulda have updated bout last night...but messiah alreayd put so many pictures in his,
so yah, just go tu his blog and read =]

the animal you've become

2006-07-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

gosh. stop judging me.
You arent any better off a person or individual yourself. hell.
Your bloody negative attitude (towards me esp) is getting up my nerves.
Just if i screwed up before, doesnt mean i'll screw up everytime... Dont tell me u never let anyone down before
pfft.

Or probably, you got your fat ass too high up, it got stuck...
and now you probably cant help thinkin you're the most matured-thinkin, popular, coolest, understanding person there is.
Earth to you, you still suck.
BIG TIME.
:)

!!!WALK AWAY!!!

2006-07-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

HERE'S IS OUR VERY OWN (and much long a-waited) RETARD-FIED VERSION OF
WALK AWAY!!!
(you know you wanna click the link) =P

::STARRING::

Clement
Jenmey
Messiah
Yours Truly

With Help From - Karyin and Peixin <3> It's isnt very perfect, and the timing is abit SCREWED.
and seriously, makin a short 3-min video is sooo much more harder than it looks =D
but hope you enjoy it.
(QUICKTIME IS REQUIRED)

I LOVE MAH EEDIOTS!

naked like the truth

2006-07-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

gonna make this a real fast one. cus its likes exactly 12 midnight on the dot now.
Not forgettin its 7th month...so,
"SPIRITS ARE ALWAYS WITH YOU!" (for real now =X )

Saturday after tuition went to town find the Shu-man and gang, with Brian and gang.
and yes, SHUMAN IS 16 NOW BY THE WAY.
drink more milk la lil' girl... so u'll look your age =P
(joke joke)

I got myself wasted away at home on Sunday. =/

Monday, I went to town (again), with Messiah and Teresa...
(Choonsoon was spose to come too, but then he became gayly-sickish-flu-ed last min =[ )

Cine's 9th floor.

adorably weird costumes they had

we hang and ate, and the two of em bought these expensives weird chocolates, quoted "VERY WORTH IT" =.=

we're sooo retarded at times, i LOVE em
(i know i said i wouldnt put this pic, but unless Messiah takes THAT pic down, this pic is STAYING..HMPH! fair trade! =D )

There's always this thing about long train rides that makes you sleepy, regardless of how well you know how ridiculous you'd look.

this is a personal fave. (i just took it today =D )
if you dint know she was sleepin, you'd think she was havin an orgasm or something... =X
OH, and note the strap comin down her shoulder... OOOH MAMA!

So... would you care to take a train ride together with me? =D

sometimes...i wish

2006-07-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

just came back from tuition...
did quite alot of maths tuday.

i cant believe just how much formulaes have leaked outta my head.
i really wish something could knock my senses back into my head.
carol said it before, "ITS YOUR FUTURE LEH!"
its so frightening how the year is flying by soooo fast.

anyways, brian got full marks for physic test...
like can yall believe it?
BRIAN leh! -.-
(no offence LOL)
i tried my best to find faults with his paper... but aiyah, u know im kiddin la hor?... HOR?

anyways, Monday, i had my O LVL CHINESE LISTENING.
two words.
"fucked up"
They kept playin this really gay but nice classical music,
which got me sooo drowsy, i fell asleep while listenin to the passage bein read out.
like, ARRGH!

and after chinese listening, i went to Tan Tock Seng hospital with Yiling, Cindy and Sherman.
went to visit Ryan (who's got this HOLE IN THE LUNGS -.-)
but he dint seem anywhere near DYING.... LOL.
bought him some forget-me-nots.
yiling and cindy bought sunflower and roses.
Reached home like 9 plus.
playing this really childish game called O2-JAM.... but FUN leh!

anyways... here are some pictures taken this week.
they are all really random yeah.
if you find any offensive, kindly let me know, i'll CONSIDER takin it down. HA.

Miss Lai tellin us not to drop DnT

Betty on classy expressions

Yuanzhang says his pic is worth 100bucks at least

so i guess, i have 200bucks now =D

Battle of the strongest, no prize for guessin who'd win.

aye mate!

2006-07-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

YES!!! =D
the song aint repeatin at tag page NO MORE =]
actually i even tried makin a new blog =.=
we'll see how it works out later =D ...LOL...

ytd i woke up pretty late, cus the day before ytd (friday), i went went gyming and swimming with the gurlies.
actually Messiah and Choonsoon were spose tu go too. but Mess fell sick, and CS dint wanna go anymore.
it was fun and tiring... the Lazy River isnt the same without Messiah ard =/ ahahahaaa...
i dropped dead once i reached home.
woke up again at 3.30am o.o
played com, den went back to sleep =.=

saturday, i sorta wasted away at home...
then ard late evening, Marcus asked if i wanted tu go play POOL (weeeeee), but it was sooo last minute, so i couldnt make it... sad.

went to watch PIRATES O.T.C. at Westmall with Mess, Tingsheng, Xiaopang and Ziming...
we wanted to catch the 9plus show.
but the queue was sooo long , so we decided tu buy 10plus show, and there was only the first row left.
so in the end we settled for the 11plus show
(4th row from screen some more!)

Went to playground and Macdonald get ourselves wasted away on icecream and chats.
i borrowed Xiaopang's jacket, which was really big on me
(Jenmey could like wear it as a DRESS =P)
its feels nice, maybe i should get myself one =D

Jack Sparrow is sooo cute.
and Will Turner is HAWT. totally.
MARCUS (ahem!) told me that there was something after the credits, and said we should really stay and wait for it...
i forced the guys tu wait and watch.
and OMG. IT WAS SOOO WORTH THE WAIT LAH! hor Marc?... idiot =.=
reached home ard 2.30am.

sweetie, we all love you to bits, no matter how retarded you are at times.
not forgettin insensitive and really mean at times T.T
(but ttz not the point =.=)
its was only out of concern we'd wanna know and care so much...
gosh, you can always come to any of us when ya okay. =/

oh no. oh my.

2006-07-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

dont forget my faults are your very own too...
pride does get in my way. doesnt yours?
i've long stepped out of the way.
so please, dont let me catch you talking shit :(
its neva a sweet ending
dont try to play my game.. ya dont even noe the rules.
assumption,assumption, ASSUMPTION
i've always meant buddies when i said so.
kinda disappointin ya dont reli understand me. (or u dont wanna. but wadeva)
but then, u tink u do...
oh well.
"open up and settle it"?
you neva did too. why should i?

btw take note, this isnt a hate post.
its the ranting of a teenage asshole who is really really pissed with her friend.
(take note? --> F.R.I.E.N.D.)
and i noe u noe that this post was sooo gonna come up...
but you always seem so innocent... and im just the guilty one. awww.

wo de quan shi jie ting zai tonight

2006-07-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

OMG, im listenin to chinese song =X!!!
the lyrics not too chim, and yes! i love it.. =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yTUW_HTTDg&eurl (i cant seem tu link it with the picture -.-)
TONIGHT - Nan Quan Ma Ma
=.= weird name tho

i skipped sch tuday,
cus i woke up late, and it'd be the 5th time this term if i did go tu school.
mom called up school tu say im havin a heahache, which i WAS havin,
(considering that i slept at 5am and woke up at 6.30 the day before, thanx to France n Italy =X )

im gonna go meet up wif Teresa Mess and CS latta i guess, hit the gym or sth..... SIX PACS man!!! GRRR!!!!

anywayz, here's the neoprints i took wif a bunch a lovely people on 7/7/06
(did you know, btw, that on the exact same day the next year... it's considered the HOLY day, and a new messiah will be arriving!
oh the hell, like havin one in FHSS isnt enough trouble already............. joke la mess, joke joke =D
and for those dumbos, the Holyday thing was crap too btw =.=... im juz soooo LAME =D)

[THE MAY COLUMN]
arrrgh!!! i've been thinkin... really really hard ytd if i really should rebond my hair or not...
i mean, peixin's hair turned out absolutely fine,
but mine's different, headshape and all...
really wanted tu rebond in the past cus my hair's all damn messy and there's short strands everywhere, now i've kept it quite long, im not sure what i wanna do... cus i do LOVE the CURLS i have on my hair...
i just dont want it to be sooo thick and untamed... but nowadays, its been quite "obedient" =.=
but i dont want it too be FLAT straight on my head too =.=
WHY CANT I HAVE IT BOTH WAYS? grrr.

i just want you to be happy <3

all around me

2006-07-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

last night went for Community Night dinner at school.
half the dishes were nice, i guess.
me. weishan. xiaowei

Brian and the guys came in that WilberPan-Prom-Blazer... it was really nice on em la, for a change from the usual shirt + three-quarters.
group foto.

take not of the doll in Vanda's hand... it costs over ONE THOUSANDfkingBUCKS!

after dinner went to Jen's hse for awhile, and waited for dad to come fetch me.
So damn bored now... later must go tuition.
but nobody really has any plans.
plus im broke... oh well.
btw... go check out this band
FLYLEAF
their vocalist is sooo cute. so short and has sucha big voice. LOL.
she owns that Eva-whatever-sense's vocalist.

ALL AROUND ME
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

highway to nowhere

2006-06-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

if yall could just SUDDENLY remember that imma GIRL...
YALL'D BETTER BE FUCKING TREATIN ME LIKE ONE THEN
if not, dont fucking use it as a gay excuse on me.
damn.
DRAKE BELL is soooo cute! xD
he dint use to look as nice back then in other shows...
shood like totally watch Drake And Josh show... he has jus sooo "WOW"-ed up.
[drake me baby one more time]

set.my.heart.on.fire

2006-06-25T05:44:00.000+08:00

its sunday 5.45am now...and im still up...
today is officially the last day of my beloved JUNE HOLYDAYS (T.T)
(aka my made-believe-summer-time)
FINALLY changed background.
awww, that popo-bear was reli cute... but... i gotta grow up...for now,at the least.
actually wanted tu change the whole template...but i was so lazy, makin the background seemed so much more easier...hehe ^^
LIFE (as we know it), is about to change for FOREVER after sunday...
O.M.F.G
and i can only pray none of us cave in tu stress =/

everyone ,please go catch the movie KRRISH =)...
watched it wif mom n sis tuday, wood ABSOLUTELY LOVE to catch it again...
♥ hrithik roshan

booyah

2006-06-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

to start off...here's a picture from a few days ago...
ladies and gentleman... this is how u fuck a wall...
(jus kidding ^_^ dont try that at home.esp infront of yor parents)

ytd went tuition.
den went JE station wif big.B...he goin Takashimaya tu play YOYO, and i was gonna meet mah girls go town.
on the train. (from 6'oclock, karyin,me,teresa,carol,valerie)

look who we caught on camera. taada.
(dont get mad ^^..its such an artistic capture of emo-solemn-ness)

we climbed up and down FAR EAST PLAZA like forever... and i bought boxers! =D ..the randomness of it all...LOL
den we wenta Heerens... where i bot my firs round-tight-neck tshirt...
it felt so weird at firz, cuz i dun wear t-shirts =/ (if ya tight wif me, ya wood noe)...but KY says i needa get used tu t-shirts. LOL.
outside neoprint shop waitin'

and last but not least... the NEOPRINTS ^^ (okee. so each of us got tu take 3 pieces each.and i frikkin lost ONE. that makes TWO (for the maths))
[the 5 and half girls]

den valerie went home n SQ went off find his fren.
the rest of us went Taka where Carol wanted tu check out Zara...
me n KY wenta look for her slippers which she cooden buy.. and KY became depressed! LOL
den the 4 of us girls plus big.B and a sec5 guy called Taufik went home.
the lameness was too tempting

at station taken by BC

taken by KY aka long-armed-and-depressed-lady

the end....

wad a boring boring day today... it rained cats n bitches.
spoiled my plans! HERH!
tml goin back sch to cut some wood...YEHHH!!!! zzZ

...

2006-06-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

ignorant and rude to the point of past anyone, everyone's limit.
she dont see juz how much she's hurtin mom.
i reli dunno how mom tolerates her.
unreasonable and rude like fk...
its like i have fked up frenz from fked up family... but we're all like still stand-able...
she's like beyond all that...she's FKEDUPLIKENOONEBUSINESSOVEREVERYTHINGFKINGSMALLMATTER.
too self-centred...she only sees her own pain.
spouting words that cut so deep without even giving it a thought...
its been so many years... it oni gets from bad to worse.
wen will she ever understand.
if karma were to work. she's gonna regret and bleed for forgiveness wen she has her own children...
sheWILLregret.
its sinful to make ur mom cry.
EVEN i dun bear/dare tu hurt my mom's feelings.
mom juz soROCKS la..
i cant get a better one in a million lifetime.
and she juz keep hurting and tolerating.. cuz its her own blood and flesh.she cant juz give up on her...so she juz keeps givin in...givin in...cavin in.
cus she tot her dear daughter was sensible in her own ways and would eventually mature tu learn what is wrong.
other NORMAL ppl i noe, dey yell at their parents wen dey argue or fight.
she? she yells and shouts everyday like noone's business
cant care less how sad she's makin mom bcum.
somehow it might have been all my fault.
i've neva been a good sister.
neva set a good example...
so much so she's not respecting even me anymore.
words i say, advice i give prolly sounds like bullshit tu her...
i've lost her love and respect.
never cared wen she was still so young and innocent and looked up to me for guidance.
things we take for granted.. we always learn to realize wad it means tu us after we lose em.
so true. so true.

enfold me

2006-06-03T02:20:00.000+08:00

3 days into june now... and quoted from frenz , "may has ended"
so saddistic. herh!..ahhaa
the holydays almost feel like it hasnt reli been holy.
i go back to school like almost everyday... im still needing to wash and hang out my school uniforms...BAH!
OK, so i went to M.O.S a few days ago with a few close buddies... dint actually go as planned.
but hey! we managed tu get in ^_^
....and they had diz draggy fked up RUNWAY show til 11pm. but after that, it was totally kool....i stayed til the end, den shared cab home wif Mess
(there's like this one more MOS (not burgers) tingy on the 18th... anyone wanna go? =/ i wood love havin a few friends to dance with.)
OK now, so its JUNE right. and everyone's gotta have sumtin to set their mind to (other than the upcoming national sales..zzZ)
...it took me awhile to PLAN out my limited time.... that imma gotta COMPLETE MY DNT PROJECT.
i dont have any choice now.
results of mid-years came out, and i soooo did NOT ROCK =/ period.
i havta choose either HUMANITIES or DNT (and Humanities is quite a NO-NO now)..
unless i sumhow miraculousy got a "B" for my chinese O lvl... but what are the chances of that?! arrrgh.
Wanting to complete my project is one thing, but actually DOING IT is another...
but its all in MY hands!...so, MUAHAHHAHAH that!
Quite some changes took place recently... and i noe diz sounds sooo contradicting, but i juz dun REALLY care, anymore.
cus whoever, wherever you are, im still me, and im still gonna be right HERE if anyone ever NEEDS me.
i love playing the angel for EVERYTHING (its like a fked up trait in me), but even angels need a kit-kat after sometime...

i want my green contact lenses dammit!
im sick of the reflection in my mirror. everything's so dull and black!...
Black hair, black eyes....(and omg) blackheads!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end of MAY omg

2006-05-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

omg... MONDAY's O lvl chinese... geesh!
am i ready? Am I Ready?? am i?! AM I?!!
i realize juz how lazy i am at updating my blogs nowadays... lazy to upload pictures, lazy to tink of wad tu type (".)... surprise surprise* =.=
anywayz, its sumwhat the STARTING OF JUNE "HOLYDAYS" (n.n)
and yehhh, cant wait... 31st o' May :)... tho not alot of ppl... but yehhh, cant wait xD
been tryin hard to save munny lately... with help from AhSoon. he helpin me save 5bucks everyday... thank you.
i owe my princess her bafday prezent =/
i seriously wish munny wood fall from the sky sumtymz, juz for a day, tt'd be good enuff ^_^
here's one of our class fotos...

and when boredom got to me...

have a laugh...but dun get mad (T.T) i meant no harm.
it's high time for me to change my blog background, but im juz so LAZY!!!! (again)
and iwebtune seems tu not be able tu load, no sound! wth....
nowadays, quite busy watchin diz anime "BLEACH"...it's reli nice
LOL, esp to sum1 like hu used tu tink tt anime is childish =/
so i guess i "grew down"... ahhahaa...

**happy bafday chorchor,u and i may keep fighting, and we may hate each other at times, but u'll owayz be my dear LITTLE sister (no matter wad size u bcum xP)

im on fire

2006-05-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

was chattin, and suddenly came unto a topic bout life wif my buddy...
wad do i wanna do wif my life months latta from now?
i seriously dunno, Mom always told me tu get intu business course,
im not reli even sure if i can make it, but i reli wanna do wad i wanna do... which is where the problem lies... JUST WHAT DO I WANT?
one thing for sure, im DEFINITELY not lookin forward to graduating... not tt much, no matter how much freedom it means im gonna get...
i DREAD the idea of havin to start my life ALL OVER AGAIN, make new frenz all over again...
it's so tiring...
will i get friends that would understand me as well as my dearies do?
will they be the ones i can turn to too?
... most importantly, will they love me as much as i am now being?
Where am i to find another princess who can tolerate me like Teresa...
another crazy eccentric brother like Mess...
a dear as small and adorable as Jenmey...
a sister i can click so on-the-spot-anytime-anywhere like Carol..
a buddy as witty funny and clickable like Brian?
so many more names that will only ache me as i tink bout it...
isit too early to be havin these thoughts?
all these are people i wouldnt wanna and couldnt ever replace,
all so special and dear... LOL...
cheesy, isnt it?
but life's a piece of pizza for me.

exams are almost over... tml is Physics and DnT...
i dun wanna think about it.... soon it'd be over and done with...
then it's FUN time!!!
i wanna hang wif my sisters and brothers and buddies...
hit the arcade, go ice skate, go beach, go town...
i love my life x)

i remember your smile

2006-05-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

halfway tru mid-year exams now... still haven told Mom that exams already started...
dun wanna, dun dare tu... lest she restrict me a great deal, i'll juz surprise her wif sum high scoring results wen i get em back =/
(not that i've actually done good for the past few papers i'd taken... geog fked. s.studies fked. chinese FKED)
quite long dint update le, i've changed quite abit in the past few weeks...
(actually i dint, it was all in the mind in the firz place)
i've taken in quite alot, and let go juz the same too...
i guess diz is wad dey call growing up..
wen it IS takin place, it's so hard you cant breathe..
then wen you've decided to let things be the way they are... and whatever "IS" becomes "WAS"... it suddenly seems so much easier once again.
i've had juz finished reading the last episode of THE BLAIR WITCH FILES that i could find in the library..
and now im feeling so lost, =/, wad am i to do to preoccupy my mind now... im aimless and without a cause or reason once again... :(
and there is MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK which im currently into...
they're reli nice... the vocalist sounds special... and they send the same kinda vibe as Bowling For Soup, a happy kind.

Came back from watchin Mission Impossible III wif 3sa and Jy3 at Jurong Entertainment...
not bad, i neva reli liked M.I. b4... (mainly cuz of its theme song =.=) but i judge tings b4 i actually even try it out... same applying to ppl, it's a bad habit i shooda rid myself of... takes time tho =/
i guess this is 'GROWING UP'

My oH my

2006-04-15T11:52:00.000+08:00

ytd went to Clementi K-box celebrate Teresa's bafday...
had a blast wif my beloved sisters n brothers... =D
b4 that we went to Jye's hse tu make cookies =/ cuz his hse got oven...
his dog, FKING FREAKED ME OUT at first... anyhow sneaked up bhind me, den i screamed, and it clawed my leg x(
LOL, the funny ting was how i had tu secretly try tu escape while the dog wasn't looking, den i tink it saw me la, so i ran and it chased after me O.O (abit malu sia the situation)...
gEe, our dear little princess is turning 16 on monday le xD, how tym flies...
Love you ALOT dahling (u wont find me sayin this outside, so u better treasure this sentence)
Here's a pic from ytd
all of us xcept Dolly was in the pic cuz she's was the camera woman x/

oh yah, here are some random pictures taken sum days ago.

at TOYS'R'US, picture taken by Jye

"DIE JYE DIE!"

introducing, the new X-man =)

WTF, OMFG, LMAO!!!

are you game?

2006-04-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling much better with myself... i dunno why.
firstly... go check out http://uk.tickle.com/test/whosyourtypef/result.html
my type :
Laughter is the way to your heart. A man with a fab sense of humour is definitely the one for you! You want a Clown, someone who can laugh at himself and make you laugh, too. There's nothing more tedious than a man who takes himself too seriously. You know that if a chap is silly, he's generally self-confident and secure. Your man is a people magnet and everyone's favourite friend. There's never a dull moment with your clown nearby. You crave excitement and a bit of a laugh, and your clown enhances those things in your life. You probably think life is too short to spend it without a smile. Your witty lad will ensure that that doesn't happen - his light hearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.
i guess it is pretty accurate...
btw, people, i'm PLANNING TO MAKE CLASS T-SHIRT FOR 4E 2006, sooo...HELP ME OUT BABIES =)
c'mon laaa... last year le x( 4E!!!! MUST BUY!
then yah, let's have a chalet or sth... YAYYYY... and show the world we still have that BIT of class-spirit within... wOots.
(i know i sound reli reli sarcastic, but trust me, i'm not =/ )
and yah, got this X-factor singing shyt coming up... i reli wanan take part... why not? LAST YEAR le leh! (i noe i keep reminding myself that), must be ENTHU =) no harm...
it mite seem tu be so not me, but aiyah, LAST YEAR le leh!
i wan do group, but cant find anyone to pei me go... both Mess n Teresa got stage fright...
then i oso dunno wad to sing... hmm... =/

today after school, go out eat, den came back wif Jye n Welix go do sum DnT shit...
alamak, the Welix ah, fking careless dumbfk sia he, LoL, reli had a laugh...FUN =)
then afterwards, me tereSATAN and Jye went tu JP, hang out... went TOYS'R'US (yehh! so long neva go le)... played there, shall upload the pictures latta... FUN =)

random.

2006-04-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

FOOLS. we all are. Feelings is something almost everyone cant control, so it's not like i dont wanna control it OK, but sadly im not my own God...
and Like you doesn't mean i Want you, OK? SO WAKE UP...
we could have been all along been great friends, and this is the last year... SO GROW UP LA. CHIBYE >:( i thought FRIENDS were meant to be FOREVER... NABEI.

LoL, try go up to a stranger and ask the person with that serious look on ur face and ask "Excuse me, may i ask if you know the satay man?"
if he/she don't get it... you shall raise ur eyebrow and say "you know... the SATAY MAN?", in a way that is sposingly gonna make the person feel dumb for not knowing what u are talking about...
then go "Oh, i rmb now... he LIVES ACROSS THE STREET" in the tune of the nursery rhyme.. and give a smile and walk off xD....
AHAHAHAHAAA... kK, i'm juz being lame, self-amusement..., but seriously, go try la =/ LMAO.

memory

2006-04-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

~~i've had always felt us drifting further further apart... all along i did KNOW... but even so, part of me could not ACCEPT so...~~
i could not accept reality...
we did had something special, but it's GONE... IT REALLY IS GONE.
no matter how much i tell myself it is not... no matter how hard i try to hold on...
now all that you could give me is memories from the past...
it has never really been your fault...
it was me all along, I deceived MYSELF.
i made myself believe sumwhere beneath, you still cared about me..
now i realize, that even if i were to be gone forever the next day, you wouldn't even cared to tell me how much i had meant to you... would u?
because there is NOTHING to say...... i am, nothing.
i really wish i could be someone special, someone different, i really wish i could get rid of my feelings, i wish i were cooler, i wish i could care less...
maybe you would have liked me better this way...
but pretending is the most TIRING thing i could ever do...
but how could i continue to love you if i don't wanna LOSE you...i dont ever wanna lose what ever little is left of our frenship
i am sick and tired of everything...
i'm sick of this sick obsession over you..
i'm sick of dying to wanna look at you every minute
im sick of fking myself up over small things that you do...
to top it up, i'm sick of writing these gay entries dedicated to you when you don't even read...
all that i'm bottling up everyday... i'm gonna explode soon... CUZ YOU'LL NEVER KNOW JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i could just talk to you, talk about EVERYTHING, talk it all out... but i dun see that being possible...
i am PATHETIC... DESPERATELY PATHETIC.
when some things are just not meant to be, it is time to let go... but i just FKING CANT!!!!
i need a break... not only from you.
from everything around me...
but it's unfair to some that i love...cuz it's no one's fault... it's just me...
me against myself... but i cant break free from myself can i?... my own senseless senseless psychotic mind, that brings me all the thoughts i cant bear...
music is my only cure. but for how long... how long would it hold me up.

~~will you catch me when i fall, would you love me if i'm gone?~~

soda pop

2006-04-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

*words in pink is editted 2nd time (after actually knowing the real truth =.=)
ROFL...
okay people, no harm intended here...

YES i was wrong too in the first place =/ cus we all ASSUMED (yes, we ASSUMED wrong) that it was US....
im QUITE SORRY.
NOT trying to make things worse NOR piss each other off, im just gonna justify myself =)
Words do spread fast, believe me baby, i wouldnt have bothered to read urs too (again) if it weren't for my friends...
In fact, i wouldn't even have bothered to read urs in the first place (not tryin to put u down like u were to me, im just lazy to read blogs =/ )
OR even blog about it if it wasn't for my friends telling me how offensive ur entry was to em...
(ok yeah, so i DID somehow implied it was YOU. my bad then +.+ )
Gosh, i was WHINING?...
you can actually HEAR me tru my keyboard??!! (O.O)
(hats off to u babe, u're a total psychic)
~~and yah, no BIG FUSS, just abit of defence from our "ASHAMED" underaged population (T.T)~~
and i did not assume ^_^
it was pretty... no, VERY obvious... cus almost everyone(the "PATHETIC" KIDS i mean) was talkin bout your entry...
(here's an open option, "we ALL love to ASSUME" =D ... wOots!)
I was NOT asking for "IT",
this is my blog right?... how could you threaten me? (O.o)!
(IM REALLY SCARED LA, PLS LEH, DONT HOOT* ME...WAAAA...not being sarcastic, HONEST)
it's a FREE COUNTRY dammit,... i demand my freedom of speech. thank you
~~Oh yah, you're REALLY kind to be willing to PLAY with me, =D but i don't think i have time for you, so a million apologies =(~~
gtg sleep le zzZ....
(btw, the "HEIGHTS" thing was an ANALOGY, but its OKAY if you did not GET IT ^^
and yah, thanks for your suggestion =/ , i shall TRY taking MRT and BUS as soon as possible :D )
Geesh, at the end of the day, im feeling pretty stupid now...
gotta think b4 i talk/type...
fking hardheaded too.... WHY?
4get it, what's done is done, "time is sth u cant rewind" o.o
aight, let's look at neoprints now xD YEHHH!!!!
27th of March, at Bugis

31st March, JE's new neo-shop

1st April at Heerens

someday, hopefully, we get sick of it =/

dirthouse

2006-03-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

on the day we got into trouble... ahahahaha...!!!!!
(regarding the previous post)

LIVE for FUN

2006-03-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

LoL... just got back from tuition ard 10pm...
let me open up this entry wif a Joke-O'-Mine firz ^_^
*ahem*
during tuition, i suddenly felt so happy i told Teresa
"im so happy...wait i go pee first"
den i suddenly rmbed this phrase "cried tears of joy"...
and i was thinkin "mine is pee of joy =X!!"
ok ppl! this is where i stop and hear u guys LAUGH!
laugh people! laugh!
Tuday after lessons went up find Messiah, he was in his playful mode again...
we dcided tu cross dress juz like we did back in sec2... LOL.
he wore my skirt, and i wore his pants.
and we were running ard, juz havin plain dumb FUN.
Den wen we about tu leave sch, i still lazy take off the pants...
den Mess was like "RUN! MR GOVIND SAW US!"
i tot he kidding den i looked over and saw Govind standing outside his new office lookin at us..
fk, i totally forgot tt he changed office tu 3rd floor! grrr!
My mind told me tu follow Mess,
i stoned for awhile as Mess ran out of sch as Govind shouted "COME BACK!"
i dint noe wad to do so i juz ran out after Mess, den dammit, Govind reckonized me, cuz i heard him shouting my name too... but i juz ran on, as Teresa "ran" bhind me...LoL.
Mess and i stopped at "mama-shop" there thinkin Govind wooden cum chasing after us... and waited for Teresa tu catch up...
den while we 3 were makin our way tu the bustop, Mess cried wolf and said "RUN! GOVIND BHIND!"
den yah... as i was just about tu put back on my skirt, there he was...
BLACK and BIG on his BIKE...
i STONED there, shocked... he actually rode his bike juz tu chase us... LOL.
Anywayz, so yah, we got intu a stupid ridiculousy laughable mess(trouble)...
and Mess is gettin caned tml! YAYY!!! (nah..joke joke!)
im gettin off easy. thank god imma gal ^_^
i'll stop here... it's QUITE late now =/

you're so paranoid, you think so much you lose ur common sense... i feel you dont reli treasure our frenship anymore... GOD, i feel like SHIT... maybe u'll wakeup someday... till den....... i'll be........rite here......pretendin its all ok-ok-alright =D!!!
"let's go back... back to the beginning"

Trippin'

2006-03-19T10:16:00.000+08:00

tuday is...(drum rolls pls)... MESSIAH GAY A ICO's 16th bafday!!!!
time has juz passed so fast...
seems just like as though if it were ytd that we were bickering (and FIGHTNG, fyi) like little kids back in sec2...
well, we still argue alot, but not as much ^_^
gonna go tuition den head out later tu celebrate wif Mess n hommies (see me act-zee-nigga)
FUCK! i cant believe it... last day of March holydays already...GRRR!!!!
Anywayz, my blog has been abit SCREWED UP (abit only), like my MSNGER...
some of you would hav found it totally impossible to view my blog SOMETIMES (cuz u're gettin tu read diz NOW, so it MUST mean tt its OK now ^^)...
and my MSN, ppl juz cant get their msg sent tru me at all...
well, if ttz e case, jus NUDGE me, i'll see wad i can do about diz :(
16th March was fun
(no matter wad u oh-so-pro-clubbers think bout it)
i mean c'mon, there is always a FIRST for everyone, can you blame us for gettin excited?
at the least, we entered "GUAN-MING-ZHEN-DA"ly...
(that feeling of using ur OWN REAL EZ-LINK card to enter sth actually takes u to new heights... LOL,kk,nvm, ttz juz crap =.=)
and PUH-LEEZ!!!
dun make it seem so terrible as to say we "HAO-LIAN"
ttz juz so typical of u tu try tu bring us down
we "SHARE OUR JOY WITH THOSE WHO WERENT PRESENT"...
u feeling me ho? (aww, u made me MEAN T.T)

(teresa and me I , at the starting of the day, off to Marina to have steamboatshyt wif our classm8z)

( after dancing non-stop) pic taken by Guo Quan...

i would have LOVED to update further, and nag on like an old hag...
but time's running short... gtg. (n.n)

REPOST for Wednesday

2006-03-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

ytd woke up pretty late... went to school just in time for the last 5min of lessons before remedial ended... Mdm Chia dint say anytin, either she dint see me or she cooden be bothered. I could have not gone at all, but Brian left his phone in class the day before. so i had helped him keep firz, den went back just to return (is he dumb or dumb?)
Afterwards stayed back in class hoping to find company soon, but everyone had their own stuffs like FnN and other lessons on... so i went home first...
Left the hse again ard 1pm, met up wif GuoQuan... Tingsheng was spose to meet us later, and Teresa and Carol were coming around 5pm.. then we were all gonna go and buy Mess' bafday prezzie ^_^ GQ and me walked along City Link firz... and yup, i had my firz taste of Pretzel... reli nice! i wan more! lmao.
Ard 3pm, we met up wif Tingsheng and headed to Somerset... ate at Yoshinoya, chatted bout my DnT project... GQ had already decided on what to do, i reli hope i cood use his idea, but its not easy too =.=
Ate. Headed to Heerens. went to look for a RED TRIANGULAR SWIMWEAR for Mess... LOL!!! so malu... went to the shop, den we choose finish le, the guy at the counter asked "What's his size?" i tot he was referrin tu how long the BEEP* was... ( i seriously dint noe, i tot guys buy their undies by lookin at the cup size for the grind =.=) so i guessed and said "7 inch" (X.x)!!!
den GQ asked me to "ask him how big it is". i dint reli tink much, i tot he asked me to ask the guy at the counter how big HIS was...LMAO... i tot GQ was tryin tu crack sum joke at firz mah =.= ...oh well.
Ard 7pm, the girls finally came, and Mess came to find us oso, cuz he was wif YiLing at town in the firz place... den we all walked ard... went inside Hse O` Condoms for the first tym...haha me and Teresa bought identical but different colored keychains that looks like shyt =/ LITERALLY.

den we all went to CINE take neoprints =)

then after that, we ate hanged around abit... then the 6 of us took cab home... me Ts n GQ in one cab, Teresa carol n Mess in the other... i'm gonna stop here le... feel so tired... I'm waitng for THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT to finish dL-ing... cant wait... its practically like the oni ting tt can reli take my mind off him now... Hail Elle Kedward!

gimme LOVE LOVE LOVE!

2006-03-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

LoL... i wanted tu put up COURTNEY LOVE's songs....
but both my uploading webbie and IWEBTUNES hav sum prob...
she's like among the top 3 female celebs i respect n admire the most...
along side with GWEN and PINK
"one day my prince will come
but man, it's just TOO late!"
** BASTARDS**
u've probably already come across one-too-many in ur life b4, but let me list another one or two for u...
firz runner up, we hav the TWO-TIMING bastard that claims "LOVE and LIKE is DIFFERENT"
(yah yah, true tho, firstly, it's a different spelling ^^, rite?)
for championship, we hav one that restricted the gal wen he himself was hatching devious backup plans bhind her back like 1, 2, 3...no,4...maybe 5...perhaps 6 times?
And yet he still had a need tu act a saint and make it seem as tho he was painfully lettin go of her for her own good
BOOSHIT!
he had PLANNED it long ago even before taking action...
dabaloo-tee-ef?!
but yah, thankfully, there are sum good guys...
but they fall under the minority... =)
I'd love to update further... put some pictures infact... on all the updates i've been missing out on...
but i've gotta go meet up wif my frenz... play ball!!! just the the GOOD OL' TIMES...
honestly, if i had to choose btwn being a buddy YET again or a stead
i REALLY REALLY wanna be the first,
but im not that special anymore am i?
you are no longer the shy yoyo player,
but those days will forever be imprinted inside of me ^_^

HAPPY HOLYDAYS EVERYONE!!! =)

Son of a Gun

2006-03-11T09:25:00.000+08:00

diz aint reli considered as an ENTRY...
but i'm just warming up to it =)
i actually wanted to dedicate the next entry to all those bastards out there in this world.
that would explain why the song BEEP is chosen too... LOL.

i gtg now...
im actually gonna go to the Burmese Embassy and PRETEND to be my sister and sit for HER exam... how weird
but as i said, BURMESE embassy, dey arent tt smart tu realize it xP

hai ai ni, dai yi dian hen

2006-02-11T10:58:00.000+08:00

i had just pierce my eighth earhole for my right ear ytd
only my really close frenz noe every piercing, after the first basic pair, has a reason bhind it
one week le, that my mom isnt in S'pore.
kinda starting to miss her...
she went back because Grandma got hospitalized, for eating a whole duck.
she isnt suppose tu eat red meat, but aiyah, fking stubborn la she, neva listens to anyone.
she's like living in her own little world or sumthing, she gets what she wants, if not she'll throw tantrum.
then yah, just got news that Grandma's being diagnosed with stomach cancer.
they haven told her about it.
just feels so weird, im not that close with my grandma,
but i do feel this sudden surge of sadness all over.
i think i was feeling for my mom...
What would my mom feels if her mom is to go away?
what would i feel, if i were my mom, and she was hers?
i just wan mom back asap, i hate the milo dad makes in the morning.
Marcus sent me ONE LAST by Taufik...
the lyrics are nice,
tho it makes me feel resigned...
but that's what i should be feeling now.
after i've hurt myself time and again.
Messiah said i should "wake up", i should... shouldnt i?
can anyone pls wake me up?
i've been dreaming so deep.
I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go.

i've come undone

2006-02-10T16:29:00.000+08:00

i feel so choked...
i have words and tears that cant come out of me.
sometimes i just dun understand my own feelings,
i owayz have to rely on other people to figure out MY OWN FEELINGS
i always say things that i regret later...
human nature, we juz live to regret.
we'll regret what we did, and wad we not do.
I feel like i've just given away the frenship which i held, and still do, so dear and cherish.
i regret not ever being able to find out just what you really feel.
im goin crazy.
cuz im juz so confused...
WHY?
why cant you tell me WHY???
PLS... dont tell me that you don't know.
you do know...
how do you REALLY feel?
i really wanna go back to the yesterdays, when we used to be so close...
why does things have to come to things?
why are things so complicated now.

My Little Piece Of Heaven Has Turned To Dust
Now I'm Gonna Give It My All To Never Fall For Your Trap Again.

if only

2006-02-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

i feel so tired now.
now have i realized what i have done.
i was wrong to let you know.
no wonder you're so scared of coming near me,
there are other fishes in the pond for you to choose from, im just not special anymore.
i know you dont trust my feelings for you,
but i can only tell you that whatever i did,
it was all for your attention.
but i never knew how tu go about gettin it.
i guess i cant blame other girls for all liking YOU now can i,
seems you are gettin more n more attractive, and i cant blame anyone for that...
i cant even bring myself to hate you.
what am i to do???
you won't even tell me your feelings anymore.
i miss the old days... i really do.
at least i was SOMEONE to you back then.
whenever i ask you to talk to me, it seems like you have nothing to say.
forever there'll be this misunderstanding btwn us.
whenever i try to get closer to you, you back away.
i blame myself too.
i dint mean to scare you away.
i dont wanna hold you down, i noe you wanna do what you feel like doing when you feel like doing.
i get jealous too easily too, can you blame me?
i've tried running away from my feelings for you
i ended up at the same spot all over again.
Tired, i stopped and decided tu chase after it again.
and now i'm dead beat.
Everytime i could almost give up, you give me that pint of hope that makes me fall all over again.
Why did you do that?
i am SERIOUS about you!
you are misleading... hurting me.

i dunno what i should do now, i cant break free from this.
tell me what we should do... wont you?
stop running away and look back, and tell me... save me.

are u human?

2006-02-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

fk... i just rmbed SOMETHING
im gonna have to be mean now :(
its about what that bitch has done before...
i cant believe i almost forgot all about it!
i know this girl, who is really nice and love her boyfren alot.
but that boyfren (wad a jerk), cheated on her last time by two-timing her... with another girl
but that gal KNEW he has a stead too.
no prize for guessing who she is.

dun hate me, im angelic enuff not tu condemn ur name openly ^_^
awaken the devil inside of me, wont u.

what is WRONG with you!

2006-02-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

firz you betrayed me
i took it in, i told myself "nevermind"
then you start having ur fking claws all over him like nobody's business, with that whiny bitch voice of yours.
i told myself "perhaps that's juz e way she is"
then i found out you like him too
(OMG)
and to think, everyone else knows too.
i told myself "that's it"
you KNEW i liked him, you fking knew.
and dont act saintly going around saying u dun wish tu hurt my feelings, to cover up for the fact that you're a bitch
you and your FAT WHITE LIES...
literally describes you so well,
fat, white, and a lie (fake)
i sound pretty unreasonable, but i've lost all reason tu tolerate u and treat u like u're invisible.

you wouldnt wanna see me go crazy.

isit too much im asking for

2006-02-06T20:21:00.000+08:00

i dunnit your TIME.
i dunnit you to CHANGE
i AM a PART of your time
the only reason i love you is for the way you already are
i just want to be sure of what you feel
"is that too much i'm asking for?"
you think too much. doesnt your head hurt, at all?
tomorrow must hand in DnT folio le
mindmap+32 items+16 problems
fk, im still at mindmap...
dear god. have mercy.

~i dont wanna fall to p.i.e.c.e.s~
~i just wanna sit and stare at you~
~i dont wanna talk about it~
~and i dont want no conversation~
~i just wanna cry infront of you~
~i dont wanna talk about it~
~cause im in love with you~

too loud for you?

2006-02-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

wHeex... just got home from playing pool wif Marcus and jenmey n carol at Beauty World there...
once again, Mr Koh paid for the pool games again!
i shall openly announce Marcus as a reli veri sweet fren,
very few (and i mean VERY) guy frenz actually are nice or angelic enuff tu walk their frenz home.
so dude, im glad u're my fren! ^_^
wait after 14feb den i treat you back k? hEex.
i have so much crap i wanna write about, but dunno where to begin.
oh yes. HAPPY BAFDAY VALERIE and HANXIANG! XD
tuday during Humanities lesson, me and Teresa kept looking at Miss Egg (Ek) and wondering in awe why she is a teacher in the first place.
for one, she seems to have a fked-up-non-giving attitude towards teaching.
she seems to have diz "im only paid to be a class teacher, not your private tutor, no previledges for anyone" problem.
"i teach 4E as a class, you guys study as in a whole as 4E, do your work as 4E, and hand in homework together as 4E...
when you hand in your work, you hand in according to MY timing, when i WANT you to, i wont accept any work after that"
it's no wonder she's still a Miss.
"im only married to you as your wife.
not your sex slave or maid
i cook when according to my TIMING
and only fuck when i WANT to .
NO sex on weekends, i need to spend the time dying my hair black"
Then sumwhere during her lesson, was wen Marcus sent a msg askin me out tu "bang sum balls"
so i quickly jio Carol n Jenmey go, cuz both of em noe him also, and Jen's eager tu learn pool. LoL.
then after school eat le went 4B wait for clement
i ended up playin Chinese Chess(which i juz picked up not long ago) wif Bart
was my 2nd time ever playing
and OMG. i won! im so pleased with myself la.
i thrashed a pro! wOots!
went home listen Eminem music for awhile, and tried tu get myself soaked in his heavy angry lyrics.
"Bleed Bitch, Bleed!"
Then ard 7pm went down play basketball.
8.30pm me n Jen took cab tu Beauty World there play pool.

tml most probably will be goin Ngee Ann poly wif Clement firz den go Valerie de bafday ting or sth.
omg, im so tired. gonna go sleep le.
i just realized i haven visited ppl's blog for so long. im juz so lazy la.
soon i'll be tuu lazy tu update my own.
i reli wanna thank the ppl that read my crap regularly (machiam i just won the Oscars for blogging) and not becuz u wanna return the favour of me reading yours. i love u guys. ^_^

superhuman me

2006-02-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

KRYPTONITE
I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do...
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
>but still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
if not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground
once in a while, the lyrics of this song still haunts me...

got back home quite early today...
ard 4pm plus...
fuck, i feel so stressed.
haven felt diz much stress in sucha long tym now, i fear white hairs are gonna make their way out of my scalps x(

just another day

2006-02-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

dont be too concerned bout my past post bah.
im still a gal ttz learning to grow up. haha

1st Feb le... 13 more days to V day.
14 more days to Sports Day... i feel like taking part
but every year, Green hse lose lik fkheads =.=.

way away

2006-01-30T16:49:00.000+08:00

fuck. i tot i was SPECIAL.
i tot i was LOVED
yet EVERYONE i ever cared for, forgot me.
i donno wad i did to deserve diz.
i feel so confused.
"everything's so blury... everyone's so fake"
i dun wanna be a bitch. i dun wanna be clingy. but i cant suppress my anger. or sadness.
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME???? HOW COULD YOU ALL.
I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
Theres nothing for me here,
it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here,
I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe
anything

all that i loved. all that i cared for. you proved me wrong
i tot that after sec2, i'll get myself over being so sensitive bout diz.
but now i realized i cant...

fun with dickheads

2006-01-29T12:01:00.000+08:00

HNCY y'all! ^_^ (nth for me tu be happy bout cuz i aint RELI chinese, and i dun get no ang bao. sad)
so yah, Friday, after all the Chinese New Year concert (or so it's called) at school
i was spose tu meet up my dear dickheads (Teresa Mess n Carol) at 2pm at JE den go town tugether...
i went to find Govind tu take back my Ez Link firz, den end up doin labour wif Choonsoon Siqi n Vanda as punishment... was FUN la. serious. better den labouring alone.
den Siqi let me n CS hitchhike a ride ^_^ (ty)
i went home prepare and everything gonna go find em le...
but sumhow, i ended up accompanying my mother tu hospital for check up (cuz my chibye sister cooden be contacted, den bo bian lor)...
den, wah! fk... TAKE SO FKING LONG lor!
i ard 5 to 6pm den go find Teresa dey all at town...
den later at night, we watched I NOT STUPID TOO (again).
not so sad diz tym... mayb cuz cant get the vibe... alot of ppl laughing... LOL.
Then Saturday, went out with my family for a while...
come back home around 6pm ...
do computer awhile, burnt a CD for theodore... den 8pm plus went downstairs basketball court find Theo n Tingsheng.
Mess oso arrived same time...
Ts n Theo were playin against diz fat guy n a shuai ge ^_^
(the shuai ge veri kind leh... i go throw ball and it hit him, den he react so nicely. thank god)
den we around 9pm went Westmall to catch FUN WITH DICK AND JANE
it was FKING FUNNY la...
Jim Carrey rocks la...his acting... wOots
den after the movie we all went Mcdonald talk talk...
Theo left firz... me Tingsheng n Mess went home around 12am plus bah...

later me n Theo goin over tu Mess hse... wOots. LoL.
so sad cant get other frenz to hang, cuz all of em have family stuff...
oni me n Theo neva celebrate. oh well.

awww.sad.

2006-01-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

::WARNING::
get ready to have your heart ripped apart girls...
As you all (SHOULD FKING) know.
this is . . .

Joshua Ang. 17 years old local hearthrob ever since you set eyes on him after watchin I NOT STUPID TOO.
Stats : Smart + Cute + Handsome + Musically talented + Poetic! aka PRINCE CHARMING.
and i never knew he would actually have a real Friendster acc (cuz there's a fake one)
but. but. i found it (http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=25485498)
and... gawd!

='( . . . need i say more?
(HuI HuI at http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=3509317)
probably from same sec school as him bah... oh well.

dont worry gals, we can cry our arses out together.

"i dont care"???

2006-01-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ever ever ever ever went tru a day without hearing sumone say
"I DONT CARE"?
but if u hear that same sentence coming out one TOO many times from someone...
it's juz sooooo WRONG.
fine, so now u're gonna say "but i dun care"...
think again, you RELI RELI dont???
bull shit.
for fuck sake, add a "really" into that fked up sentence.
so it'll be like "i dont REALLY care"...
that way, u can still put up that "cool" image u want to, and still sound sensibly sane... cuz no one is gonna judge just HOW MUCH you REALLY care.
maybe im just having MOODSWING.
or maybe i just wanna make my thoughts be heard.
i wanna JUSTIFY myself.
i MUST be JUSTIFIED.
it's sooo NOT a case of winning or losing an arguement.
it's juz ME, wanting to make my stand.
you say i am competitive?
im sec4 now. i dont see any fault in wanting to be competitive.
(just like how sum dickheads get high from watchin gayporn.)
i get my MOTIVATION from COMPETITION.
is it WRONG of me to want to do so?
i mean, here i am, trying to make my life more meaningful, and my mother more happy.
i think i've finally found the drive i had before in primary...the one that keeps me goin.
and all YOU had tu use was a few fked up words that made ME feel so wrong, when it had been feeling so right?
Contradictions, contradictions, contradictions.
make up your mind. and choose a path.
be SENSIBLE.. SENSITIVE and SANE.
Just like how you wont go up to this really FAT girl and say... "you noe wad? you're FAT!"
did you expect her to go like (o.O!)
"omg! really? i dint noe!"
FUCK YOU!
she knows she's fat. you dont have to tell her unless she REALLY REALLY REALLY wants to know...
cuz SOMETIMES, the truth HURTS
(not the kind when my mom asks my dad if she's fat... =x )
so yah. let's say you are that fat gal ok?
and u told another person something really mean and hurtful (let's say...ur friend?)
and ur friend asks u "why are u like THAT?"
you DONT say "im being HONEST. that's just ME"
BULLSHIT.
anywayz, i better stop here b4 i get more MEANER and MEANER.
but i dont REALLY give a fuck.
cuz jus like how (quoted from Xiaxue's blog) "you wont go to a porn site and ask the porn stars tu put on sum clothes"
you come to my blog to read my crap, you were (supposed to be) SO READY for it.

u're so fkin SPECIAL

2006-01-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

been plannin tu catch a movie for very long le... but owayz drag drag drag until dun have...
den initially today i went around BEGGING EVERY FKIN PERSON i could to pei me n Teresa go watch "I Not Stupid Too"
den in the end, it was all screwed up...
den around 6pm, Brian Jye n Yuan Zhang jio-ed me go JE watch I.N.T.2 wif em....
im glad i went, the movie, even tho its poster looks so childish and gay...it totally rocked la. . .
gotta hand it up to Jack Neo to reli think the mind of the PEOPLE...
recommend ppl to watch la. seriously. cried so much till my eyesore, so embarrassing la...
CREEP by RADIOHEAD

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here. . .
Anywayz, i suddenly feel like talking about MYSELF. MUA. MIIE.(wadeva)
i am veri much satisfied wif the way i am diz year,
it may sound like a cold joke.
but i am, in fact, feeling rather ACCOMPLISHED.
im a Monitress diz year (yes, even tho i haven even collected my class diary)
im scoring rather well in my science n maths (compared to last year)
i've been arriving to school on time.
i dont fall asleep much in class anymore.
but sadly, i still dunno wad i want wif my life . . .

i have no dream, no goal.
i juz wanna take one day at one go.
but if he*s considered a dream, den I Guess I'm A Dreamer ("eh veri familiar leh!" . . . of corz! its rite down there...see? lmao)

down the drain?

2006-01-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

LoL... i am gonna get down to the 3rd part of "friends" soon le... next week bah.. haha
this song "PERFECT SITUATION" is juz so cute la...
not the Cyndi Wang kind of cute, but as in lyrically cute
like, very down to earth...
i think i'd be changin the "Pics" corner tu "lyrics" cuz im juz so lazy tu upload pics tu there... xP
anywayz... now here's a random lame post...
If u had been reading my blog, u would be able to follow up on who is Choonsoon ^_^,one of my bestest newest buddies...
and yah, nowadays, my classm8 has been wrestling around in class for fun...
infact, dey do it EVERYDAY...
and CS owayz loses... but he juz wont give up =)
here's the link to a video i pai'ed down.
http://h1.ripway.com/insanity-allowed/theovscs.3gp

kK, i stop here le... cuz im so siaaned (x.X)

(miss) understood

2006-01-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

whoops...its high tym i continued wif my posts le x.X... haha..
was watchin Ayumi's latest album "Miss Understood" de videos... i tink the song "In The Corner" and "Alterna" rox yah...
so yah, starting of sec2... me and Messiah became from enemies, to pals, to best frenz =)
and yah, for like half year intu sec2... Me (may), Mess and MuiMui went out hell alot... like almost (if not exactly) every school day...
den for the fun of it, we'll choose tu go far places juz for the sake of it...
it was FUN. the memories and everytin...
the neoprints (which DISAPPEARED out of my life when my bag got stolen at E.C.P. later in november...fk you! whoever u are! bitch!)
and my keepsakes of TRIPLE-M`s went away soon after...
oh yes, Messiah - he can be the sweetest fren and the biggest pain in the ass at the same time . . .
at the strartin he was a reli roxor fren, we owayz argued, but neva quarrell la...
eh, ok, so we DO quarrell...
esp during the half end of sec2... we had diz misunderstanding...
and oso cuz Mess himself "lost" his sense of "identity"..., i rmb how fked up i was back den, until i finally got myself to juz relax and let him be...
eventually he came back and we bcame best frenz again =)
half thanx tu diz RPG game "CONQUER" (which we played for lik 3 months)
which was also the firz game mess started playin b4 his "i think computer games are juz so childish" concept faded away...(truout sec3 to til NOW...he is reported tu be a game freak n_n)
Mess is like... everchanging.
he's the kinda fren which u cant, no, SHOULDNT expect to remain the same for too long.
eg. his "games are childish" to "i will die without game"...
from super Ayumi and RnB music, to Punk Rock, and now Heavy Metal...
and tru Messiah, i got tu noe the gals of 2D'04 much better (alot of whom are now my veri good frenz)...
Jenmey - tchers mistook us for sisters laz tym...she is lik my personalized mini-me,,,
esp tt tym wen our hair were long, and both were forever messy... den both skin color brown brown de... lmao
she's is like diz forever hyped up bouncy gal...
so i reli love being wif her... cuz we can get reli GIRLY or reli CHILDISH... haha...
incase (by sum miracle), u dunno Jenmey... she is diz reli reli short, small little girl xP...
the kind tt u HAVE TO(no choice! cuz MUST!) adore 95% of the tym at the LEAST...
she and Messiah are my parapara pals...
last tym we would hit the arcade at Clementi so fkin often...
aiyah, to make it short, Jenmey is lika lil sister to me, totally love her la...
den i as the big sister owayz muz make sure no1 bully her =)
Karyin - another princess... like Teresa those type... veri girly... the kind that makes you wanna poke fun at her non-stop...LMAO
she's is quite self-conscious thinkin she's fat, but she's not la...
appearance-wise rite, she's got diz flawless complexion... and pretty eyes =)
and she's veri kind to those she feels tt are "left out"...aiseh man, like angel (self proclaimed one) liddat...
den sumtymz i would lik hang out at town wif my her and my two other sisters =D
Peixin - i used tu tink she got self-esteem problem
cuz she's owayz scolding herself (tsk tsk) stupid, fat, hopeless and stuff ..
cuz she's a reli sweet gal, the caring type... den a bit gong gong oso =/ LOL
oso another type of gal tt i lik tu bully...LMAO
last for diz post, but not least...
Tingsheng - the "little brother" of my frenz...
Messiah is owayz bullyin him...
yuP, Ts actually came from same pri. sch as me... but we sec3 den bcum close...
LoL, Ts say i sec1 tt tym scolded him a "GEEK"...omfg =.=!!!
Ts is actually veri childish nah (ts, i noe u wont kill me no matter wad i say here, would u? x.X)
den he got sum weird unique habits oso... haha... den Mess lik tu imitate him den make fun of him...
appearance wise, he got reli nice facial feature... like his eyes(thick eyebrow,big eyes) and sharp nose..
i believe, witout his weird habits, he's actually be quite a catch neh! SERIOUS.
then one more funny ting bout Ts is tt, he's owayz tryin tu use chim words... so much so tt sumtymz he dun understand wad he is sayin o.O ... but we all understand good enuff le...haha xP . ..
Tingsheng is overall a veri straightforward-speak-my-mind kinda person, dunno if ttz good or bad...lmao... den veri CHILDISH la (i tink i mentioned tt already)...haha...

i stop here firz le... so sleepy sia... tata... =)

bittersweet

2006-01-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

wOots... changed my background (yet again)...
left that the "Fallen Angel" ting was too "heavy"
changed tu sth lighter... the Popo toy is damn cute la... i dun reli rmb where i found it...haha
siaan... tuday had lessons til 3.30pm... den 3 4B dey all had Netball and stuff...
got back my DnT test paper...ahdui... 2 out of 17...
i dun believe yah...cuz tt day Mr Ling never cum, den i cheated during the test by copying from my textbook... STILL CAN GET 2!!! KNN!!! ARRRGH!!! lmao
was tuday late for school...
oKee, so now it's already two tymz...
i shall TRY my BEST to keep it at that ^^
Wednesday, me Teresa Jenmey Peixin and Peishi skept Assembly..
den we got information tt Miss Lai was comin to look for me n Teresa le...
we all ran to toilet hide in one cubicle...
lmao, den in the end Ms Lai n Huimin found us le...
we came out, den cum up wif a story...
was kinda worried if we were gonna be sent down to Pwhor, cuz i seriously cant afford tu get intu anymore trouble concernin him anymore.zzZ
then i tried tu like "lick up" Ms Lai (tho i dun eva rmb ever been nice tu her), i gave her puppy-eyed-looks and all =.= (hey! dun laugh! i tink it worked la xP!!!)...
den i say she bcum veri "NU REN" le, cuz she now owayz wear makeup go sch, den she told me i bcum "NU REN" oso XD
Read Peishi's blog not long ago, she blogged about her frenz
so i tink im gonna blog bout mine oso, cuz siaan PLUS i oso wan em to noe how much dey mean tu me =)
(peishi, hope u dun mind i steal ur "idea" n_n)
Almost quite similar to Ps, i dun rmb my primary sch frenz...
i've forgotten like half of my primary SIX classm8z de NAME for fk sake...much less other lvls
altho Desmond (i cant beleev i crushed on diz guy for 5yrs back den! omg! =.= obsession) tried tu get in touch again by plannin diz gathering session for us ex Yuhua`s (which failed), i dun have much of any memory bout em...
most probably cuz i have bad memory... which is both good and bad, i guess.
the only tingz i can rmb well the most, is my dreams =/ i duno why...
and i oso tink the reason i dun have much close frenz back den is cuz i dint go out AT ALL. (surprise surprise)
So i left primary sch and came into class 1B of FHSS wif CLEMENT and MUI MUI
Mui Mui - she was like my second mother to me. sort of.
was like there to guide me along, back to the right path wen i went wrong...and sum1 i could chat wif all day long... and trust her wif my whole heart too.
She was lik diz gentle, caring gal... veri girly wif a cute laughter...
we used tu sing in class tugether.
she was my best fren aka my everytin. and i loved her lots lots lots.
Clement - he was one of those guys back in Pri sch whom i could crap alot wif...
den in sec sch, he had lik diz special attitude about him,
he was lik owayz havin diz serious-business-like face all the tym, but all that ever cums out of his mouth is crap! =.= LoL
at that tym, i guess IRC was "in" =/
den i got siaaned of our sch chatroom... so i went to gameroom channels... i rmb it was diz channel "CASUAL" where i met a VERY SPECIAL FREN
CASUAL was a travia game channel, like test ur general knowledge and stuff (pretty geek yah? hey! but i am!...no big XD)
i bcame frenz wif diz guy by the nick of POPO...
and (surprise surprise), he happened tu be from FHSS too...summor same lvl! lmao
the "weird thing" bout the situation was tt, he dint noe FHSS channel, and i found my new FHS fren (my firz fren from another class) in a game channel, out of a hundred channel there were...im glad i found him. LoL.
it was abit complicated at firz, cuz he lied to me bout his name and all =.= (lame)... but i tink i still rmb the laz ting he said to me on our firz day of frenship
"this is the beginning of a bee-ee-a-you-tiful frenship"
and i tot to myself, he mite reli be a special fren. lmao...
anywayz, incase u were all wondering... he is BRIAN.
Brian - i rmb he lied sayin tt his name was "ADRIEL" at firz...=.=... anywayz, Bri bcame like one of my best buddies ever.
ours was more of diz online frenship ting, cuz we never reli got a chance to hang outside, both oso shy la =.=
in the past, he used tu tell me 'almost everytin', and vice versa...
he matched make my firz proper "bgr" to diz guy who eventually bcame my bestfren after bcomin my enemey( guess who).
he would keep sayin bout his crushes and stuff, probably i was his only gal-fren, and he said guy-frenz dun reli understand diz kinda stuff...
he was special la...how to say...unique?
he had diz angmoh-ness about him, and owayz make me laugh wif his lame jokes on and offline...
and did i mention? he was quite a shy and humji guy back den,wen it came to gals...LOL!
hmmm, but now same class le, ever since he started wearin long pants, i guess his self-esteem oso boost...
he suddenly associate wif more gals dan he ever could dare tu in his life
he got more frenz le...
yuP, and he stopped telling me 'almost everytin'
and he oso stopped caring bout my 'almost everytin'
quite sad la... sumtymz i wonder if we dint end up same class, it would have been better off?
but anywayz, i guess we're still quite tight =/
and there was also Yuan Zhang and Theodore, whom me n Mui Mui hanged wif everyday during sec1.
Yuan Zhang and Theodore - dey both were like shorties back den... we everyday would hang at KFC and crap all day long...
were all buddies...
den dunno wad happen, after their firz NCC camp, YZ and Theo suddenly drifted apart from us le...
but now me n Theo are reli tight again. =)...
Yuan Zhang is forever busy wif his WOW game. =.=
and then, there was Teresa aka my little princess =)
Teresa - she is like diz short little gal, whom alot of guys jio-ed... she told me she at firz dint dare tok to me cuz she tot i was malay =.=
lmao...
den i rmb she sec1 tt tym, forever had diz fked up serious-van-damme face, which made alot of ppl scared of her, n tink she was unfrenly...
but now ner? she is one of my most best and crappy fren, and also veri gu niang... she bcame so childish and lame compared to laz tym XD
LoL, den me n she in class forever talking non-stop... seems like we could never stop talkin, and i cant help makin her laugh =)
dear, wad would u do without me?
and there is Carol - my other best sister ever... owayz hittin town wif carol and Teresa...
we can crap and laugh alot...
love love love gettin lame wif the both and em...
and yes, as gals, we love to gossip too ^^
seriously, we are VERY down to earth xD

oKee... i shall stop at sec1 firz...
carry on next tym bah...if u are even interest :(...LOL.

rainin cats n bitches

2006-01-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

i realise i love to post more wif pictures n less of words...
but nth much picture-ish happened the laz few days... i actually too lazy update
den karyin "blow" me to update... so here it goes x)
School start le...
i shant go further intu tt... (i mean the people tt even bother to read my frikkin frenz... dun make sense if i repeat on here all tt dey already noe)
and oh yes, my sister went to JVS... so i everyday oso go school tugether wif her...
sumtymz i even pei her walk tu sch neH! (im QUITE a good sister afterall XD )

so yaH... Friday,
i dunno why the timetable so weird, friday school starts at 8.05 =] (brian says dey did it for me cuz of my latecomings in the past...LOL=.=)
i tot "perhaps dey made the timetable liddat so give us tym hav our brekfast on friday den cum school"
well, sum of my frenz oso tot the same ting mah
so me n a whole bunch of my homies went Mcdonald to eat brekfast
Choonsoon did sth stupid at mcdonald (as quoted by Theodore)...
he dared me to cut him...
and stupid enough, i did wad i was dared tu do
i regret la... still got pangs of guilt wenever i tink of the cut i gave... THRICE!
(picture taken from Karyin's blog)
den ard 7.50, the peeps from 3B went off le, den actually Teresa wanted tu go back tuu...
but i see Weixiang Choonsoon n Theodore still eatin, so i ask Teresa to stay back pei me wait for em...
ahdui, i regret gettin her into trouble ...sorry princess :(
reli VERY sorry ... but hey! it was FUN rite? =/
so yah... me 3sa WX CS n theo reached sch there... saw Oen at school gate there scolding sum kids...
*some parts have been cut off due to writer's laziness*
so after wad seems lik a year of lecture from the Oen-and-oenly , we went back to class
only to find tt Mr Pwhore was inside lecturing our class =/ bla bla
*some parts have been cut off due to writer's laziness*
it was after school tym le...
we all went down Phor's office... he had alot of crap tu say...
Teresa argue back til she cried (omfg)
i diz tym dint reli say much, cuz i noe wadeva i say, tt fked up gaywhore sure got sum gay reason tu shout back
den he was lik gonna suspend Princess n Choonsoon
and mayb either expel (my ass la!...but im still kinda freaked out by it) or transfer me out of Fuhua(diz reli gets intu my nerves alot!)
Choonsoon kinda went crazy, in a happy way =.=
he is spose tu be worryin his pants off tt his mom would kill him, but he was there makin jokes bout Phor n makin us laugh... lmao... (buddy im so SORRY i cut u! serious)
but wif sum help from Weixiang (thanx for speakin up for me infront Govind) and Teresa (helpin speak up for me oso infront of Pwhore)
and abit of kindness from Mr Go n Mr Govind...
we were givin another chance...
anywayz tt chibye Pwhore go catch my hair for havin color... WTF??!!!!
i dye it black til can DIE!
den still wan me to dye summor... he cock eye or color blind? Ahduii~!!!
i tink he see my hair COMPLETELY damaged til cannot-be-saved-le den he happy... grrRR
den after school after Teresa went off find ck, i go hang wif Theo Tingsheng n Brian
go westmall buy tingsheng's school shoes
den drink my Hotchocolate at there de coffeebean
after tt Brian n Ts went Brian's hse firz and me n Theo went my hse there tu wait for Cs n Jenmey
the rain tt day was fked up...i tink it kinda ruined the Sec1 camp fire oso x(
anywayz, Cs came le, den he was lik quite fked up... i noe we kinda made him pissed in SOME WAY...
i wonder wad is he so pissed about ner?
*wonders*

*wondering*

oh well! i can never understand him! so weird!... LMAO!
Jenmey finally came
she was busy tryin tu find out which church me n Theo went CLUBBING in =.=!!!! LMAO!!!
dumdumb! xP!!!
we all went my hse there the Mcdonald...cuz still got rain den cant play ball
we met diz veri familiar lookin gal at there...
she said she is YOU NI's sister "YOU MIAN"...
but she looks EXACTLY lik YOU NI!
she sounds EXACTLY like YOU NI
in fact... she IS YOU NI! =.=...
she made me n Jenmey VERY VERy confused lor o.o
Brian n Tingsheng came later... we juz hanged there for a while den left, but it started raining again
*some parts have been cut off due to writer's laziness*
me n Jen spotted diz Shuai Ge who works at tt Mcdonalf... (yayy...now no need go so far see Mc Cafe boy le =.=... jK)
Sunday,
went tuition
went JJ's Blue Horizon there for a fked up BbQ session wif a bunch of dumb classm8z
i went there see JJ de chiobu sister
but she came back tuu late and i already left wif Tingsheng Theo to go Huizhen's bafday at her grandma hse at CCK there... so never get tu see until chio bu... sadded
dint get tu sleep much at CCK...
helped Tingsheng work out on his "S" pronounciation problem truout the nite =.=
9plus am everyone all left
i went wif Jen n Dolly go JP eat breakfast at Mcdonalf (again)
den me n Jen dragged sleepy Dolly along wif us on our mission tu find diz shop "MOSHI MOSHI"...it turned out tu be juz a small stall...
went back home ard 11+am
never sleep until
i went for tuition at like 3pm, came back at like 7pm
meet Tingsheng to pass him his bag (which he 4got tu take home wif him...aiyO)

im fkin lazy tu type le...
u guys go help me tink of the ending urself xP

faa-yerrr!!!

2006-01-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

haha... finally, the post i promised

30th Dec, spose tu go out wif my primary school frenz den after tt rush to tuition at 6pm...
but the primary school frenz(whom i have not seen for ages) juz suddenly screwed up. sadded xP

so i prepare finish but den nth to do, wait for until 5+ togo to tuition
so.... zilian lor =)

den after tt went for tuition...i actually wanted tu leave at 7.30 go find Carol and Marcus play pool
(me n carol firz tym meetin up wif marcus, after such a long period of knowing him, online maple n all)
den stupid brian spoil my plans +.+

den up ard 8pm Carol had to cum all the way to my tuition there disturb XD
den Mr Poh finally let me go cuz i promised to come tuition at 12pm the next day tu make up for my early dismissal.

so Carol n me met up wif Marcus at JE int.
weird lah, Carol was lik diz shy gu niang
den the guy(marcus) oso lik either too shy or cool
so leave me be the clown, brek the damn ice =)

we took train to BukitBatok, den took bus to Beauty World...
den at there go eat Macdonald
but sumhow my french fries dint go down my throat(dey kept hurryin me tu finish)... and it ended up like diz

THIS aka MASTERPIECE =)

den at there the pool FULL HSE. so Marcus left his name in the waiting list den we went to another place to check, but there oso FULL HSE. plus no UNDER 16. x(
den we went back to the same place. after lik 10 min, it was our turn.

i played against Marc. den i tink it was my lucky day bah, he kept missing his balls (lmao)... but he in the end almost won, but he entered the white ball firz den the black ball followed. so YAYY!!! i won!
after that we both tried teaching Carol how to play. so that she will stop SWEEPING balls into the holes (Arena. tsk tsk.) xP

And yaH, Carol n marc both gang up against me, alluh~... den my balls everytym GAY one, cannot enter. den stupid marcus at there kept tryin tu disturb so i'll miss.
anywayz, Marcus paid for the whole pool game, he wont say how much. ouch.

den we stop playin already 12+ am, so take cab home lor

(muahahaha)... marcus paid again =/
dude, we owe u big tym

31s Dec,

i woke up at 2pm... (uhoh...cuz i promised Mr Poh i'll be at tuition at 12...WAHHAHAHAHA)
den i actually dint wanna go.
but Mdm Lin called me den say juz cum, cuz she'll let me leave early
(cuz i had plans at 6pm initially, plans which ALL SCREWED UP last min, but i shant go into tt :] wadz past is past)

but then b4 i left the hse, it started raining cats n bitches
so i had to wait for the rain to end
den ard 4+ reach there lor...

6plus i left to go Bugis find Teresa Carol and SQ (the only people tt spent my new yr eve wif me...*touched*)

[warning, followings will be pictures, pictures and more pictures]

outside bugis street

den we left Bugis, went Somerset
Cineleisure firz, Teresa wanted her Xmas Garfield, by hook or crook =.= LMAO

before tt we actually took sum neoprints XD
last neoprints for 2005 x(
notice SQ's chest and Teresa's eyes in here... haha

So yah, went arcade dance one round of parapara and den we left the place
outside Cine there, got one old aunty came up to us, den gave us diz coupon to go get FREE LIME GOODIE BAGS from the dunno wad stand, she wanted us to get 3 FOR HER.

but, OMFG. we took the bags den ran away...LOL!!!!
the aunty was there wavin tu us to go over, but the stuffs inside looked nice, so we ran away, like idiots liddat HAHAHAHHA!!!!

den we went to Heerens
alot of shops closed le...
so we got SUPER LAME! =)

our reflection in the "weird mirror"

sum random pose

den there was INDIAN DANCING pose =)

and here's our lovey dovey human bridge XD

SISTERS PYRAMID!

"kiss us! baby!"

then we left Heeren... only to take picture outside... wif the "Football Stars" wOots!
*notice our poses*

den we headed to Lido there to drink HOT CHOCOLATE =)
on the way there, we met a green freak o.O!!!! ...its THE MASK!!!!
*diz guy actually totally freaked me out at firz*

den on our way to Mc Cafe, we met even MORE freaks...
GORILLAS! and STARWAR BOTS! omfg! LOL
even more weirder than Messiah himself =.=

finally we reached Mc Cafe
den SongQuan went off tu find his sexy friend
which he brot back to meet us later
here's our Chocolately tea!

and i remembered to get my marshmallows diz tym! [: (cuz the guy at the counter was not shuai) HAHAHAHAH!!!!

den after tt SongQuan came back wif his fren, we slacked there lik hell...
me Teresa n Carol went off firz at 10 more mins b4 12midnight...
sadly,the countdown was over while we were still makin our way there... so we three juz stopped halfway den start hugging each other...
so far so good, we managed to avoid gettin sprayed by the stupid bangalas...

Then i suddenly realized it was already 2006... a whole NEW year... the feeling was WEIRD.
i had diz mix feeling comin over me, like happy not happy, and sad not sad... haha... and then, i cried my FIRST drops of tears for 2006

altho i cooden be wif ALL the people i love wen i wanted to be... i was happy to be wif my sisters Carol n Teresa...
and we asked sum strangers helped us take our firz picture for 2006

Carol went off home soon after, i pei Teresa wait for her Ck at Orchard Mrt there...
den SQ n his fren were comin over to join us
den i suddenly felt like tryin beer again , to end the year n all
so asked SQ helped me buy one
he bought a bottle FFS(for fk sake)

den after SQ left le... me n Teresa went to walk ard firz...but haven even walk 10m...(i was lik lookin at my fone ma, den not alert), sum chibye bangla cum over den spray one hole pile STRAIGHT intu my face!!! almost WENT INTO MY EYES!!! KNNBCCB!!!! my whole mood suddenly ruined lor...
den it was lik i cooden even REACT! cuz cant open my eyes or mouth!!!!
tt feeling was frustrating la!!! lik so angry den cooden do anytin about it...

den after tt Teresa scold one bangla "cb" cuz he spray her while she was tryin tu make a call, den i shui bian join in her scold the next binglish speakin retard... juz to make myself feel better =)

after Ck came, i took Mrt home, take the red line all the way til Bukit Batok, almost fell asleep
den my mommy at Westmall wait for me to fetch me home =)...
THE END!!! XD

THE GHANDIS OF TWITS!

2006-01-02T02:46:00.000+08:00

TMD! e entry i typed disappeared! chibye!

i was juz sayin bout how me n carol were dissing ppl on HTTP://TWITIONARY.BLOGSPOT.COM
we were not dissing TWITS (for wad fk? we ARE twits!!!!)
we were dissin those anti twits

i from SUPER MOT bcum ANTI MOT
i muz have been possessed in the past u noe?
i tink i juz blindly followed the MAJORITY and supported MOT
cum tu tink of it... diz SHIT is gettin more n more ridiculous.

me n carol found sum idiot tagged bout MY JIAHUI'S blog on tt twit-board.
i mean I MYSELF like to make fun of jiahuee, but seein sum else do it is juz...NOT right
feeling me, u guys?....nvm

see diz u guys... i tagged as twit and carol as twit2...read from bottom to top ^^

twit: maybe u'll get a noble award one day for picking out who are the "twits" from the "non-twits" hallelujah!!!! keep up the GREAT work man!
2 Jan 06, 02:20twit2: OH NO. We just went against people who are twits but dunno they are twits and start going around dissing twits. MAN. this news is so big that my grandmother suddenly came back to life.
2 Jan 06, 02:16twit2: yea why diss the 95% of the population? why set up such a site to defame people and make them look bad? what's your point?
2 Jan 06, 02:14twit: OMFG!!!! the person used "yepp"!!!! OMFG! twit alert... everyone come see! this is even bigger news than ur grandmother dying!!! come on now!!! let's bother ourselves over small things like this!!!!
2 Jan 06, 02:13twit: 2 Jan 06, 00:11 -: yepp. they keep using hokkien vulgars. ;(
2 Jan 06, 02:13twit: eg.
2 Jan 06, 02:12twit: u juz cant keep on stereotyping ppl by the way they TYPE.. it's like, look at our environment for fk sake! i'd say u're one godlike holy dude if u can avoid being like em, even juz abit.
2 Jan 06, 02:09twit2: humji and hong gan. what's wrong with these words in the first place? I mean its just common hokkien used by bengs and lians. not a twit word.
2 Jan 06, 02:07twit: and nabeh n hong gan... TWIT-ish meh? HOKKIEN considered twittish to you meh? =.= yayyy!!!! our ancestors were all twits!!! hooray!!!
2 Jan 06, 02:04twit: i dont tink PCB is a twit word =/ as long say dey dun drag words. i spose anytin else is ok. PCB instead of PPPPPPPPPCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCBBBBBBBB
2 Jan 06, 01:39Fred: IS is ish...tts horrible enough...i dun find tt cute
2 Jan 06, 00:14-: tt twit with her foot's pic on blog. aiyo. what's the point of writing so many ppl there under her LOVES. SHOW OFF!!!!
2 Jan 06, 00:11-: yepp. they keep using hokkien vulgars. ;(
1 Jan 06, 22:41unidentified: like a real twit word.
1 Jan 06, 22:41unidentified: i think some terms contributed by the readers are just too, "unrealistic". as in they don't really appear in twit language much. should feature more on hokkien terms.tewiiebeuuurr dont really look
1 Jan 06, 22:29Salt: Man those two are terrible. Haha.
1 Jan 06, 13:14-: another twit.even took photo of her feet.
1 Jan 06, 13:13-: http://www.nolurve-inhellorheaven.blogspot.com
1 Jan 06, 09:16-: zehmuii is jiemei.
31 Dec 05, 23:52-: http://www.x-hehurtxmii-x.blogspot.com/

whats WRONG wif HOKKIEN?

wadz WRONG wif SINGLISH?
(if proper only PROPER ENGLISH seem non-annoyin to em...
i'd say migrate tu sumwhere else den...shoo! shoo! buzz off!)

wadz is WRONG the way most gals like to take self-picture? if dey claim everytin else as WRONG... why not sum bitch post one for us to see to show us wad is RIGHT?

diz Defamatory website give ppl no freedom tu TYPE the way dey wan... its crap i tell u.
why restrict urself?
fk those anti-twit-bitches!...dey're probably a twit too n dey dunno it

Oops, ppl, i promise i shall post my newyreve by NEXT post...PROMISE PROMISE!!!

ps. Jiahui, if u're reading diz... i wanna tell u i love the picture of ur feet
-ur dear twit

MOT fever

2006-01-01T06:47:00.000+08:00

LoL...okee...diz post not about xmas eve...but hey! i cooden resist doin this!

go check diz out!
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=20654980
im probably too overwhelmed wif MOT fever...but NO...this gal, she CANT be a TWIT(or wadeva)...she's lik... OMFG!!! WTF???? SMAO(scream my ass out)....

i saw diz pic at ard 3+... i tot the devil playin trick on my eyes by showing me himself in the form of a girl in friendster...HOLY COW! (horse sheep...baaah!)

machiam training up for the role of sum malay or japanese ghost film...
im sure she'll succeed =)

2006 le....tmd LOL!

2006-01-01T04:25:00.000+08:00

wen the tym went past 12midnight... i had diz mixed feeling comin over all...
like happy not happy, sad not sad
n i cried my firz drops of tears of 2006...wOots! =.=

I juz use this post to tell u guys that
no matter wad i do or say
i'll always love you all!(cheesy but i mean every letter)
all my dahlings
those who were with me today and also those who were not
tho i reli reli reli wished (wif all my bloody heart) tt u guys were, but oh well, cant turn back tym, (as Marcus said) bygones be bygones....

shall post on my day next post...wen i get the pictures n all. =) take care everyone.

opinions

2005-12-31T04:50:00.000+08:00

siaaaaaned.
4am...wOots!

out of boredom...yah, i went to check out this blog...or at least its under diz holy BLOGSPOT label.
M.O.T
surely u would have heard of it?

http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/
go check it out if u have not...
seems to be really IN now... as in EVERYBODY is reading...so why not you? =)
the things MOT talk about is really good enuff to catch ur interest bah... well. i am sure!
cause i was readin it for an hour plus or so... esp about diz ugly guy called WEI
http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/2005/07/screw-ruhua-this-is-new-sex.html

its EEEEW la =.=

but yah, this left me wondering... wad a blog is =/
i started out cuz its like keeping a diary...except its ONLINE and its suppose to be public (which is why i dont understand why sum people (people ok, not person. so its general) wood wanna blog without "publicizing" it...den juz get a pen n paper and keep it tu urself. doh. or write into the computer, save it or sth... but still, i respect wad u do ^_^ )
yah...so as i was sayin...it is suppose to be like... a DIARY? or am i wrong? we type our thoughts down and probably add some pictures here n there(for memories' sake)...........
but MOT actually dedicated their daily life to spending tym making entries juz to criticize other ppl....

oh
GAWD!

dont get me wrong ...i RESPECT MOT (swear! cross my hart n hope tu die)
i mean its fun to read and all ....
(honestly, people like to see PEOPLE being put down. )
MOT basically most of the tym talk about FRIENDSTER (and if u dunno wad is this... u are basically H.O.P.E.L.E.S.S xP)
it talks about people's typing style and dig fun at them, about people picture taking poses and dig fun ....

and we have to ADMIT
FRIENDSTER gives us a reason to gossip and chitchat about on long MRT rides (esp girls...sumtymz guys too y'noe?)
it's ok to TALK about those ppl and laugh abt em (entertain ourselves mah ^^)
but to dedicated nearly a year bloggin away about people's FRIENDSTER?.........

S.E.N.S.E.L.E.S.S

oKee, but i still have to admit...sum people like like MR WEI had it coming ^^....
but about the endless emphasizing of "TWITS"?....
it... makes me feel so.... WEIRD =/

dey say twits are people wif...
1) Superb typing skills. Twits have amazingly mastered their pathetic little brains to control their fingers to type with alternate caps. I'd suggest they stop doing that else their poor brain will explode soon.
(well ok, tHiS iS dEfiNitEly AnNoYiNg....so i'll let it pass... cant blame la..i mean my MSN NICK used to bE liKe ThIs bEfOrE foR fUcK's sAke)

4) Attention grabbers. Twits love attention. And that's what we're here for. Twits would resort to any methods just to get attention, such as using their ever whiney voice to scream at an ant 10 metres away.
(abit tuu kua-zhang....but ttz why its FUNNY!.... oKee, i fall under here...but i dun go screamin at ants...other insects bah... u would be (wad carol calls) "nerve connect wrongly" if u scream at ANTS.... im not sure bout the WHINEY part =/ .... and yah, screamin at bugs makes me a GIRL, not attention seeker
not sayin that all GIRLS are like this...well, im juz one of THOSE girls...feeling me? =S.... nvm)

5) Horrible language. A very prominent factor of a twit. You will never spot them without lehs, lors and lahs in their sentences. Most of the time its incomprehensible. Thanks to the fact that we proper homo-sapiens have the ability to analyse and digest infomation, we've cleverly outwitted them. That is, WE are able to understand what they say; but their mutilated brains are unable to understand our language.
The wonder of Languages.English with Chinese would be "wo men ish..."
English with Hokkien would be "they ji siao me lor"
English with Hokkien would be "my boifren lagi yandao"
(this is the annoying part... wadz wrong wif singlish leh?... omfg... did we all juz teleported to sum Ang moh country?????!!!!!...
i mean... diz is SINGapore for fuck sake...wadz wrong wif SINGlish leh?
never heard b4 environment affects people meh?
unless u are sayin u are workin for sum Speak Good English campaign to diss singlish n promote proper english....if not, NTH wrong wif "lor" mah! ....alamakk
now sum1's probably gonna complain tu sum campaign say i promote singlish
and wadz so SADDENING about speakin mixed language?...unless u are reli those smart ass fluent type...
PEOPLE go tru stuff lik CULTURE SHOCK...
i myself speak Burmese+English+Chinese+Hokkien combined at home ("Mum, i wan &#%^* now!!!".... *to sister* "oY! ke yi shut up mah? Knn") ...LMAO
even the Banglas workin here speak alien language as u see it, Binglish =/ )

oh dear...the entry so long le...i guess by actually writing bout other blogs on my own blog, i suppose tt leaves me no rite to actually have voiced out my unhappiness bout it bah...
but wad tu do? i write so much,i muz be SIAO to go n dlt all...

anywayz...pls go support MOT...
other dan the fact that i FEEL (see diz word? it means its my PERSONAL OPINION) that dey stereotype people by classifying em machiam dey sum scientist set out to study people and pick out who are the TWITS from the NON-TWITS
and IF u had read diz entry all the way until diz fullstop here. i suppose ur nuts, or have nth better to do...hahah...jK xP

pls save me

2005-12-29T10:02:00.000+08:00

It's ironic... how i had juz changed the song to Not Now ytd...
and that today, i'm writing diz post
Last "nite", i went to sleep ard 5am
got woken up by sister's horrible singing
wanted to juz scold the fk outta her and go bakc to sleep or sth.
den mom enters wif diz dreaded expression on her chubby (fat, huge, wadever) face
.......... (wait a min, i juz got diz fonecall... and now i find diz entry pretty pointless le)
nvm, i shall juz explain anywayz.
so yah, she was sayin how i should have paid my due fines long ago
which got me confused
partially cuz i was half asleep
den i rmb Mr Go told me FKING CLEALY that i shall pay my 30bucks fine AFTER i receive my warning letter
and now my mom's telling me of how my FKED UP SCHOOL has called up my otosan and told him all about it saying the deadline is 31st Dec (happy new year to me)
well... that totally pisses me off, cuz juz monthS ago wen that happened, me n mom were so scared dad would find out... i rememeber juz how FKING ANXIOUS i was, tryin to get the letter b4 he does
but all n all, FUHUA wasted all my fking efforts wif its fked up misarable GAY fonecall... and no, i dont mean HAPPY (wadz there to be happy about... hooray, a package of angry dad + negative 30 bucks in the pocket isnt veri happy, is it? =/ )
so yah, mom was like "tuday ur father will definitely scold you...but nvm (NVM??!!!!)... let diz be the last tym... pls, dear, stop givin me any trouble (i'll tink about it)"
den she n my sis n sum other relatives went out (dey ALWAYS go out wen im "sposingly supposed to be" sleeping...zzZ)
i asked her wad tym she'll be back... making sure she'll be there to protect me wif her chubby (fat, hige, wadever) motherly body juz IN CASE my dad goes nuts and wanna turn physical on me.
cuz it has been MONTHS that me n dad ever laid a finger on each other (seems lik we're on diz peace agreement...either tt or we juz bo hue each other)
plus the holidays has made me really slouchy-slacky-lazy-weak, and im in no way prepared to yell my precious voice hoarse again
let's go back
yah, so she said "by ard noon"
*relieved*
"but den i need to go out again later at ard 5"
*wtf*
my mom is owayz "out" either one reason or another, she prolly goes out even more dan me
and den she'll complain how i never spend any tym wif her...but she isnt even cooperating, for fk sake
but she said she'll be back b4 dad returns... so yah... good =)
den at firz wen i startin bloggin diz entry, i was havin diz anxious scared feeling that i had monthS ago
den yah, halfway, the fone rang
i tot twice, no, thrice or more, b4 picking it up, cuz i was afraid it was dad, wasnt reli prepared to speak to him yet
and "surprise surprise", it was dad... he juz casually asked where mom was... den casually added tat the school called
*double surprise surprise*
so i casually added that i already knew about it
den he told me "if u wanna try it out, do it outside school, not inside...get urself into unneccessary trouble"
triple *surprise surprise*
all and all, if that lovely gals dint tell on me, there wooden be any of diz shyt happenin to me..
but dun worry, u're still lovely =)

its so weird... now the song duzen reli suit the situation at all...
so siaaan... i tink i stayed home for nearly 3 days straight le????
TAKE ME OUT!!!!!!!!!

u're like no other to me

2005-12-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

Go listen to Karyin's blog de SONG FOR LOVERS... omg... i love that song, got such a happy vibe to it =)
anywayz, here are the neoprints for Xmas Eve day (that i have)
this is the only pic wif everyone's face in it, omg... tingsheng looking hornily scary yor?

another weird tingsheng face, aahahaha, den the monkey boy hiding bhind him =.=

this pic tingsheng disappeared, and yah, the hand on my face is jen's (i no tym to paint my nails x[ )

here choonsoon n GQ went into hiding =/

oh yah, 4got tu mention we saw sum of our school mates at Bugis neoprint there, tink is Rena dey all.. yuP.

it's UBER-ZILIAN tym again!!!

2005-12-26T06:58:00.000+08:00

HARLOW everyone XD
merry-belated-xmas...even tho it sucked....
let's begin from 23rd Dec shall we?
went to sell icecream tt day... paired wif jenmey
sell at JurongEast Tohguan there...yuP
den kinda surprised to hav cum upon Sukhveen's hse,...and yayyy, she bought one =)
i took sum tym to zilian abit xP
we all around 8.30 lazy le dun wan work le...go Clement hse down there slack....
i asked my mom cook dinner for us...
i brot the food down to em,worryin dey cant finish it
den wah! like ard 5min, everytin gone =) [mom veri happy la]
while me jen px n choonsoon eat,tingsheng n theodore go play bball...
we eat le go open up our own icecream(the one tt we're spose to SELL) to eat...LOL
hmmm,dey dared to finish up one whole big chunk of icecream at one go
i tot was easy at firz sia, almsot ended up vomittin it out (den the px go take the picture down summor=.=)

after tt we all juz slacked around...
suddenly out of nowhere
two BRAVE WARRIORS appear...
one named THEODORA and one name CHOOWEE
and they began to fite! =.= LOL

oKee, i shall end 23rd december here =)
Next,XMAS EVE!!!
i went tuition firz
den after tuition went to find the rest of em (Mess,Jen,Tingsheng,Px),but it started rainin like fk wen i left tuition...
it was lik raining cats-and-bitches!!!
and poor me got caught in it x(
plus i stepped into sum fked up big puddle of water =.= zzZ
i waited for em at JE int for like 30 min, so i went to toilet to fix my wet hair n dry up all tt
wen dey 4 come le (they all already painted their faces...did i mention? it was lik diz FREAKS-DAY-OUT...so it's lika special n different Xmas for us =/)
we were gonna go CityHall look for Karyin n Choonsoon
den i realized the 50bucks i borrowed from mom earlier in the day, was GONE!!! arrrgH!!!!
i was fkin pissed
like ruin my whole mood sia,i wanted to use that damned money go buy prezzie for my dahlings...
so u can say it WASNT a veri merry xmas for me :(
on the train ppl kept starin... haha,but fun la...
den at Cityhall le, found Cs n Ky le
den we go toilet to go makeup ourselves...
and yah, we all took fkin hell alot of picture tt day
wanna upload all can die, i show sum sample here,
the rest of my own pics can go my frenster see...LOL
so here is me (wen i left for tuition)

and here's me after reachin Cityhall

FUN!!!!...LOL!!!
den after hangin n shoppin ard at Cityhall
we left for Bugis...
went Delifrance there slack and wait for GuoQuan
took alot of pics
diz is freaky messiah n freaky me =)

now diz is self-proclaimed-angel karyin and devilish me =.=

and here's sum sneak peak of little jenmey and peixin =)

and jenmey took diz pic of me while i was laughin o.O

so wen GQ came
we all hanged ard Bugis
and yuP, i managed to take a pic of tt monkey boy (kinda hard to capture him down lorx =.=)

tink alot of pics le mah? haha, we went to take NEOPRINTS!!! =)
haven scan, scan le den i upload the pics =)
soon, keehong came to find us afterwards
around before midnight, we all went Jurong Point find Dolly n Theodore
hanged around den after tt Keehong, Px n Ky n Dolly went home
me Jen Mess Tingsheng CS n Theo ton the nite at JP de carpark there, talkin tru the whole nite and singing...
den early morning went JP there eat instant noodle from 7-11 =.=
den wait for Macdonalds to open den eat summor =)
later into 25th Dec....
woke up ard 4plus
went to JP find Jen,Mess,Karyin,GuoQuan n Keehong, go watch NARNIA 9.40pm de show (cuz the tickets veri hard to get)...
we had alot of tym to waste
so went arcade firz
den Toys-R-Us
den after tt we all went Mac-cafe to chill
den OMFG la, i saw this fking-cute-creature who works there there...and yes, it's a BOY!
den double OMFG, he happened to be same race as me la...wtf =.=
den i put up diz act-cool air n asked him "eh boy, u burmese arh?", he was lik so cool wen he juz said "yah"...
suddenly jenmey jumped in and said "eh! she also leh!" (DIAO!!! i was so malu-ed...den tried veri hard to act cool)...
den mess suddenly offers to help me get his number (was surprised, tot why he suddenly so good)...den he came back laughin say he told the guy "my fren DESPERATELY wants ur number"...
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
den for the next 10mins, i was so pissed at Messiah...oh well
the movie was nice... quite catching... i loved the LION =)
and the eldest brother in the story strongly resembles England's prince william...oolala
den the movie finished ard 12plus liddat...
no more bus le...
i hitchhiked Messiah n GuoQuan takin cab...xP ....LoL
den i reached home 12.30,realized my whole family not at home yet...zzz!!!!
waited downstairs for a fkin hour...poor me...

oKee...stop here le bahx, no its like 7.40am (arrrgh)...gotta TRY to sleep...

what i did for love

2005-12-23T04:44:00.000+08:00

4.45am now....
eating cup noodle (which i cooked by myself, thank you)
and was checking out sum webbies
if u guys wan sth funny...go see diz link
HORNY DUMBASS
or if u wan sth sad...go see diz
(pls pls pls...i was reading diz while eatin my noodles, and i cried rite intu my cuisine...its so sweet n touchin)
WHAT I DID FOR LOVE
[im havin sum prob linkin tt webbie...so i shall type it out instead]
or go here instead... http://universalbuddy.tripod.com/story.htm
its like diz korean sob drama script...fkin touchin...

tml dunno if shood watch movie/ go tuition/ go work....
tink i choose work bahz... cuz need munny to spend x( FKING BROKE now!!!!

at least i noe sum1 feels the same

2005-12-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

LoL... 2 entries on the same day...
goin to find Jenmey soon
chattin wif Marcus juz now
i was amazed... no... STUNNED at how he took the words right out of my mouth

мясѕ says:
wimp are used on guys
мясѕ says:
serious..u feel like saying out how u feel..but u never do it basically for the fear of rejection..and if that wasnt worst enough..there is avoidence..
мясѕ says:
so u just shut up..and get along..hoping that god will make miracle..but still it never came true..
мясѕ says:
and even if u spilled it out..it was like "urhz..." then awkward silence..and u start drifting apart..blah blah blah~
мясѕ says:
yayaya?
' ☆мауҳ☆ Ohay =wake up time to die= ✖fix me✖ says:
YES!!!!
EXCTLY!!!!
' ☆мауҳ☆ Ohay =wake up time to die= ✖fix me✖ says:
OMFG

gawd. im so glad i have someone to talk to about diz weird situation.
u may tink im makin it obvious by posting diz... but hu cares?
he duzen read my blog anymor
much less care bout wad i feel or think. hahahahahahahhaha

now free me

2005-12-21T17:23:00.000+08:00

21st December le... FOUR MORE DAYS TO X'MAS (wOots!...not tt i actually celebrate it, but...wOots!)
This song, FREE ME by Emma Bunton...
i like the way she sings, tink she rox la... even tho diz song the lyrics oso quite nice (ignore the "long to seduce you" part)...LoL
i dun reli rmb wad i did for the past 5 days... i do rmb tt on 19th, Theodore suddenly last min jio me out go ton at the 2C's ppl chalet (wif the courtesy of Choonsoon) x.X
LoL... me Theodore Brian Weiren n Tingsheng reached there ard 2am liddat, cuz we had a hard tym findin the damned place...
i keep seeing things. i only pray they arent real
then left the place ard 8am, went to Westmall hanged til noon liddat... den i went home, the guys went to swim at Brian's place.
i cant go cuz
1)i dun have a swimsuit wif me (not like the guys, jump into their boxers can swim le)
2)i dunno how to swim
3)no other gals
4)and the only other gal (brian's mom) wooden be too happy to see me =.=

i went home slept all the way til like 7pm... woke up play com
all the way til next day(today) 9am (-.-)
den went to sleep, juz woke up at 4pm liddat juz now
actually spose to work, but suddenly no mood
so goin Clementi wif Jenmey to hang at Mac and play arcade later...
or maybe watchin KING KONG =/

sing for me

2005-12-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

ytd not bad, managed to get myself to sleep ard 8am to 9am... kinda improved abit... hahha *looks on bright side*........*blinded*
woken up by Mess at 12 plus, he told me not to go back to sleep...but i still did, kana woken up by Teresa at 1.30+... haha...
went JE interchange ard 3pm find Teresa n Carol... den we waited for Messiah n Guo Quan...
dey came le, we went to JP to find Tingsheng at Arena Country Club
actual plan was to go town watch movie...KING KONG =)
at there got TingSheng, Ziming, Kokmeng n Xiao Pang...
we end up playin pool instead...
firz played against Teresa n Carol (dey two VS me)... LOL, wanted to teach em...
but see em too "PRO", CANNOT BE TAUGHT=.=
so pro... that dey SWEEP the ball into the holes using the stick =.=... cute hor? LOL!!!!
but i still won xP...
den i tot try my luck play against Guo Quan, even tho he so pro win our Tingsheng...
and yuP, tyco or not tyco...i won him x)!!!!! YAYY!!!!!
we left the place ard 6pm...dint go town anymor, cuz Tingsheng dun wan go, den also bcuz not much tym left, Guo Quan need to go off at 9pm...
me Teresa Carol Mess n GQ went JP firz, pei Carol buy a blazer...
den we all took bus go Clementi...
Princess Teresa wanted tu learn parapara...hahah, funny la dey both, carol dance until veri funny, so hyper kept jump jump jump xP
play until like 8.30pm, went to have dinner at nearby hawker centre...the prawn noodle was NICE =)

den after eat we all took 189 go Bukit Batok... i got off halfway walk home...
it was kinda creepy walkin home alone...but ha, im BRAVE =)
time for Maple now...
and yuP, Big B.'s comin home tml. woH. finally.

mad may

2005-12-15T08:06:00.000+08:00

Do not be ALARMED if you tink u are seeing nonsense in this entry
Hi God, im writing to you
it's 8.07am in the morning now. Yes. Usually, i SHOULD be FUCKING ASLEEP!
i don't have much to talk about, but rant...yes.
ytd i slept at 10am plus...and i woke up at 3pm...
all the way til now... 8.11am now...
i could go FKING CRAZY at this rate... hell yes i COULD...
i lied in bed from 2am to 8... toss and turned... read book... listen song... i did everything... im gonna go MAD....
im not a OWL...
im not a FKING OWL!!!!!
at nite, i'd suddenly feel so happy, i look back on all the fun i've had and will be havin... i feel so hyped.
then the next, im so sad... i look back on the tingz i've done, i felt so wasted... i felt so FKIN WASTED!!! .... and i tink of the unwanted future, of ppl dying (for no reason),i imagined those i love GONE,and i start tu cry like a mad bitch in the middle of the night.
i think of the tym i wasted juz WAITING...
feels like i've forever been waiting and wasting away.
i wait for a boy
i waited for myself to change, juz to be better, physically(appearance...im sick of being MONSTER) and mentally (smarter...more self control)
i waited for shooting stars
waited for this fkin boy (did i mention diz before)
waited for the start of holiday
waiting for the end of holidays
in the end, im juz actually waiting to die.... HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

im tired. i gonna LIE in bed again.
pray i'll get to sleep.

sparkling angels....

2005-12-14T01:54:00.000+08:00

Yayy... just changed background and stuff... im so FUCKING proud of it can!!!!
finally mastered Fotoshop, no need use the stupid Paint le =.=
now must test out wad color suits the thing best... cause now the colors i used tu use is tuu hard tu see ...eye pain
Am suppose to pia Maple now wif Carol, cause the Teresa n her CK catch up until damn fast le... one 27, the other 30 now...wtf man!!!
but here i am, bloggin...LoL
HAHAHAHA, just got off msn conversation wif Martin aka Fatcat =.=
i sent an ugly picture of him (i edit until ugly) to his stead... den LoL...he said he HATES me...awww!!!! sadded
Nowadays keep playin basketball almost EVERYDAY wif Jen, Theodore, Weiren n Choonsoon...haha... slack so hard til so late everyday...aiyO, cant imagine how it'll be like wen school reopen... juz abit more 2 weeks left...OMFG!!!!!
Saturday, was suppose to go to both 2B`04 chalet de BBQ and my Jiahuee de BBQ... hmmm... but me Clement and Carol went Jiahuee's BBQ at her Blue Horizon(so chio) there instead, den end up no tym go 2B de. cuz its at NTU there...woH so far
we walked from West Coast all the way to Clementi (I LED THE WAY OKAY!!! *smart*)...
den Carol went off firz, Clement (not Clementi) pei me wait for Messiah, Theodore, Weiren, TingSheng, Hanxiang and Arron b4 he went home (how sweet)...
we were suppose tu ton wif Troy, KokMeng, Ziming and XiaoPang(whose real name is SHI JUN, which i on tt day den found out...omg)
so yaH, we went to Clementi there firz, den slack at Mac`

i took their pic using arron's fone...
and oso took the chance to zi lian xP

Then after quite a long while, we left Clementi and walked towards Westcoast =.=
We reached le, den started playin Catchin on the "spider web" ting...at firz oni Mess n Tingsheng play...
haha, damn funny sia Tingsheng, den the Mess run ard on the web machiam SPIDERMAN!
fkin FAST sia he!
We played til ard 3+ am (i think)...den went Mac` there rest and slack all the way til 6.30am...
waH, that Mess got fkin high or sth, he kept singing n makin jokes non-stop, make me cannot rest
we all 6.30am plus left West Coast, some went home, den sum went to eat firz b4 go home...
I reach home Sunday morning, oso dint sleep much, i slept for lesser dan 3hrs, wake up go tuition le...
afta tuition at ard 5+, i went IMM look for Jenmey, PeiXin, Theodore, Weiren, Choonsoon and Tingsheng
Jenmey go there cuz go BABY LOONEY TOONS show (childish xP)
but awww, she disappointed cuz her BABY TAZ outside look like shyt =.=
ate at there de KFC, felt fkin dizzy cuz no food and no enuff sleep
After tt, we come my hse here de basketball court play ball
stayed up late edittin pictures. eg. Jiahuee's pics (pls go her friendster and admire my masterpiece pls)
after tt slept like a log
Suppose to have work on Monday, but end up dun have...sadded
went JE library look for Messiah, Theo, Ting and Weiren
ate at there de Galilee cafe

diz pic Theo took of himself, haha...den i anyhow go edit...cuz testing out the new brushes tt Carol intro me dL... sweet
eat finish at Galilee
went Delifrance to drink my Chocolate =) and oso slack n talk...
finish le, went my hse de basketball court there, but i no mood play, so pei Mess sit down there do nth instead

Today Tuesday, spose to have work ...but end up DONT HAVE ALSO!!!! GRRRR!!! LOL....i need MUNNY fk it!!!
den ard 6 liddat went to nearby basketball court wif my homies(lazy tu list out...u go figure) to hang...
den everyone like not good mood...erm... no mood explain oso
after Peixin and Weiren went off home le...
i brought fried rice (which my mom cooked for my frenz) to em to eat (im sweet k haha) ... den eat finish, go a nearby basketball court play ball... LOL
PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!!
arrrgH!!! im goin mad =.=
take caare peeps, cuz im appointed tu be ur very own SANTA diz YEAR!!! ...yeh!!!! hell yeah!!!!
...see, i AM mad o.O

Chain Game

2005-12-10T17:27:00.000+08:00

stupid marcus... got me involved in some stupid dunno wad chain game =.=
Rules of the game: Post 5 Weird and Random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours.
oh well...
1) I have a fking messy room, yup, infact, it's cause im really lazy i guess. I dont do any cleaning up. I just wait til it gets hopeless then my mom or someone comes over and clean it up for me.
2) I pretty hopeless at personal household chores, i cant iron my own clothes, my younger sister or mom does it for me x.X
3) I have a bad habit of biting my fingernails, now not tt bad le, cuz i wanted to keep long nails, but still kinda failed. cuz keep chippin off
4) I like to go gym and train up. Like sports but very bad at all. i CANT swim, i CANT ride bike, i CANT skate... bla bla... i suck at basketball though i love it lots nowadays, i like to play foul too, and thank god i have frenz tt can tolerate my behavior and just laugh it off... Love you guys - Jenmey, Peixin, Theodore,Choonsoon and Weiren =)
5) Lastly... erm... i am girlier than i look =)
yes!!! yahyah yah!!!!believe it or not! i'm fkin girly, mentally and stuff. aiyaH. ttz about all bahz.

the 5 ppl are... erm.... JENMEY, JIAHUI, GRACE, KANGWEI, MARTIN =/...sorry guys...LOL

i wonder [why] i cant forget

2005-12-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 6th of Dec
It was Yuan Zhang's bafday...
Me, Jenmey, Peixin, Theodore, Choonsoon, Weiren worked til 8plus nia, we sold like 16 boxes of icecream...earned like 16.50bucks...
den we all left to lay out our plan for Yuan Zhang's bafday..
we all went J.E entertainment there go buy pizza...
Then Mess came along after his guitar lesson
den we 7 quickly look ard, and bought a coffee cake juz b4 the shop closed
den we all went to buy the stuff like tissues and forks and drinks... den all headed down to Yuan Zhang's blog...
the only thing left to get b4 we celebrate Yuan Zhang's bafday was Yuan Zhang himself. LoL.
Soon Tingsheng came along to find us oso...
den at fiRz, Mess me n Weiren went to wrong block... den we kept knocking cuz we tot Yuan Zhang hiding or sth =.=
then a lady sudenly open the door den kao bei us say wad wrong door, stop knocking, cuz dey tryin tu sleep...zzZ...
den after we finalli got Yuan Zhang, he came along wif us, den we ate finish the pizza togther le, den realize the cake got candles, but we no lighter x.X LOL.
den we asked him make believe the candle got fire... den make him "blow out" the candles
Me n Jen go n send Peixin to bustop cuz she needed to go home firz...
den after tt we went to find the guys at me n Tingsheng hse there de basketball court... played there til ard 2am...
den went Choonsoon hse watch SAW II
the movie quite kong bu XD hahaa... the mastermind reli bian tai la...
den me n Tingsheng almost quarrelled, cuz he say i foretell everytin in the movie le...but i dint lorx...i was juz repeating wad Song Quan told me n Jen (cuz he already watch le)... i only fkin repeated cuz Jen n Mess asked me sth
Then later in the nite we all cooden reli sleep, cuz the guys all squeezed onto CS de bed, then kept laffin... LoL...
morning still laughin like mad, especially Weiren, i tot he went mad o.O... Theodore was laughin like hell tuu, in a weird high pitch way.. HAHA... funny la
Then Yuan Zhang and Jen left firz...
i went home ard 8am...
overall quite happy la, tt day... finalli see Yuan Zhang active again...
cuz he everytym keep playin W.O.W
den i see him play bball again machiam no stamina le...
it's a headstart...perhaps mayb he'll be interested in bball again =)
Wednesday , 7 Dec
Mess came along tu work oso... i paired wif him...
it was shockin to see Mess even more "princess"ish dan teresa... LoL...
funny sia he, ask him carry empty box den he there keep complaning lika lil gal o.O...
mayb cuz he play com tuu much le oso...no stamina =.=... made like 50bucks at the end of the day...not bad la. i satisfied.
Tml we goin ice skating...

the plan not reli stable yet cuz alot of ppl i haven got em tu confirm yet... and i cant! unless dey are online cuz my fkin fone...arrrgH! zzzZZ!!!!

thank you clement!!!

2005-12-06T14:45:00.000+08:00

yayy...thanks to clement, i've got SECRET OF LOVE at last... YES!!!! finally seems like got abit of sunlight after so many sad things happen XD

i quickly uploaded it... hope you guys like bahz...

let's pretend ur [mine]

2005-12-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

here's the neoprints le...haha

this was taken at Far East =)
and these were taken at erm...Heeren

got sum pictures funny de, but not wif me, so haven scan yet XD
den now since my scanner installed le... here's sum neoprints taken quite long ago at Bugis wif Jen n Px =)

yuP...ttz all for now... goin tu meet Teresa n Karyin at IMM help em go make their contact lenses... Teresa wan make violet oso i tink =) YAYY... lets all hail the fked up trend...whooo!!!
karyin makin colorless de...

erm yah!...im LATE XD...tata

a good kinda pain, an insane kind of sane

2005-12-05T00:08:00.000+08:00

haiz... so sadded and so siaan x(
my FONE IS FUCKING SPOILT!!! i cant press most of the buttons... so i can only answer ppl's call...but cant read msgs or reply or anything else...fucked up sia
so yah, u may CALL me , but dun sms. cuz i CANT read em =(
this song SYMPTONS OF YOU...sweet sia... i like the lyrics...
There's a good kind of pain
An insane kind of sane
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
There's a chill in the heat
Feel the sky at my feet
Cause I adore you
I can't ignore you,
yeah I'm not ill
I don't need to take a pill
To fix what you do
Cure can't come through
Cause baby, all I do is suffer from
Symptoms of you
There's a left kind of right
There's a blind kind of sight
Looking at you
I looking at you
There's no light in the moon
And it's winter in June
When I'm without you
When I'm without you (yeah)
sweet rite sia?
Nowadays, my whole life was spent on selling ice-cream, tuition and MapleSEA =/
den tuday sunday Brian left for HongKong le...as he said, he's our "pillar of strength", without him, dont reli feel lik goin tuition.
let me recap... i rmb Friday went to watch Chicken Little with Jen, Mess, Tingsheng, Choonsoon, Theodore, Peixin, Dolly and Huizhen...
cute sia the movie! especially this orange monster called "CURBY"...cant find its pic anywhere...ARRRGH!!! me n jenmey reli reli want its pic. help us out =)
den weird sia... the movie got one alien, the english name is Marvin or sth, den the chinese translation down there is "MAI WEN"...totalli same as my chinese name...
omfg, i tot my name was fkin weird. the editor can actualli tink of such name oso =.=
after the movie, Peixin went to make her color lenses...she chose violet =)
den after tt me n Jen spent A LITTLE WHILE in the toilet teaching her how to wear it
finish le, den we all at Westmall there make ALPHABET KEYCHAINS XD.... i wanna upload, but oKee, my fone's spoilt...so wtf!!!!
Saturday went town wif the gals... me n Jenmey slept late on friday nite, cuz we busy editting choonsoon's pic!!! WAHAHAHAHAHH!!!

diz is my version of him...go jenmey's blog tu see her versions...LOL
i made one on theodore oso...since he now intu heavy metal all tt, i tot i shood make sth tt shows it =)

anywayz...back to the town ting... so me n jen went to find Teresa Carol Karyin Grace at 2pm instead...
den we all started gettin high...=.= juz laughed alot...pai alot of NEOPRINTS (n.n)
but i now lazy tu scan...zzZ...later upload =)
i finalli bought a purple HANDBAG =)
im on my way tu bcoming a LADY XD
now left buy lady-ish footwear...
den tuday Sunday actualli wanted tu work,but end up dun have work...so i went tuition...
after tuition go find Theodore n Choonsoon, CS go cut hair...
wahahhaa,idiot, neva follow my advice, now his hair lik shyt xP

den Jen come along le, we went my hse there play ball...den later Weiren Tingsheng Hanxiang Peishi and Valerie came along oso =)...
and yaH, juz b4 i left for home at 11plus, i discovered my fone was screwed up. oh well. not my fault =)

plastic surgery

2005-11-28T12:35:00.000+08:00

oKee... so siaan...actualli nahz.not sian... =) tuday is CHOONSOON's bafday!!! HAPPY BAFDAY chooie!! (wad he calls himself in MAPLE=.=)
so... i cooked up a lil sth on my blog tu surprise him on his very 15th bafday.

hope u like it.......... oh, u can thank me later =)
i just got my Adobe Fotoshop from Nelson, seems like the poly kids doin sum assignment wif it, cuz my trial fotoeditor gonna end le...
Adobe totalli hard tu use la!!! i dunno how the fk sum gals make their pictures till so complicated and fanciful x.X
and so i was anyhow testing it out, yaH... and under "LIQUIFY" i discovered tat VERY then and there tat the function "BLOAT" allows sum gals tu enlarge sum of their pictures... i muz hav been so dumb =.= i use tu go ard frenster and gawk at other gals pictures,
see their eyes so BIG
i was lik in AWE. fkin awed!
now i feel so cheated... sad sia. the chio bu`s bluff my feelings x(
and so for the fun of it, i made this =)

LOL...
den the Nelson, realize got such function, asked me send him the editted pics, den he asked me make summor... i dint noe why the fuck... den omfg...he go put in his frenster =.=!!!!!!!!!
the link = http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=7014761

i was lik "wtf"
den he was lik "u're doin a good deed exposing those gals usin fotoshop enlarge their eyes" =.=
say until i so HEROIC, i cooden bring myself tu be angry xD
den oH yaH, Marcus came along, he was lik "send me ur pic!!! i wanna edit!!! ur pic so fun tu edit" =.=
den i was lik shui bian send him one
look wad he made out of it... he multimedia student, so can make til veri real =.=

LOL!!! machiam nigga sia the editted pic =.=
den he sent me his tu edit =), den i tried my best...
here's the masterpiece

Marc was lik "ur editting sux... i look like some fucked up fish"
LOL!!!
den he added he looked lika character from Sharktales...
and my imagination almost made me pee my pants o.O!!!!

oKee, off i go now... meet Messiah go make hair extension, den pei Tingsheng dye his hair
after tt meet up wif Jenmey Theodore dey all find AhSoon go eat Seoul Garden =)
tata

zookeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

2005-11-24T13:27:00.000+08:00

siaaan.... i wanna update... but all tat has happened sumhow slipped my mind
i do remember tat on Saturday nite, me n Jenmey went over to ChoonSoon de hse to watch movie at his hse... then at his block downstairs there... we discovered two roaches FUCKING =D

LoL... then Theodore accidentalli kicked one of them away and thus ended their sex party. awww
and yes, on Saturday morning itself, i go buy brown contact lenses... cuz i tot nearer to natural color better than the bright color.. but in the end i realized it made me look lik cat liddat. kinda freaky la

den Sunday morning, me n Jenmey went to buy bleach and bleached our hair at Choon de hse b4 we went home
e color turned out not bright enuff, den we both not reli happy wif the color la. LoL.

Monday, i went IMM wif Mess den he bought blue contacts and i bought violet..
i helpedmess put on his contacts cuz he dunno how tu... LoL. den after tat Carol and Teresa came over find us...
we toured GIANT the food department.... buy n eat, buy n eat.
den we went 2nd floor there, hide behind a poster and eat o.O...LOL

den after tat we went Jurong Entertainment... i go dance parapara...but tat day i dressed like guy, plus got cap. den Carol n Mess say i from the back reli look like guy... ok, i tink is a CUTE one =)
den i tink sum ahbeng sittin there reli tot i guy or sth, den tink dey see me buay song, hahaha...stupid arses...

den after tat tink Carol n Teresa went off home, Mess came over to my hse there to collect contact lense solution and case from me, since i got extra.
but we ended up wasting tym at the playground near my house, soon, Theodore n Choonsoon came to join us. since the playground was right below Tingsheng's block, we disturb Tingsheng til he came down join us.

LoL, the guys, at the playground there.

me and Mess, tingsheng took the pic =D

den after tat, Brian called, den say go find he n Yuan Zhang at JE Entertainment... so we made our way there... den slack there til lik 11+ den went home.

Tuesday morning, Brian called den asked me rush to JE watch Harry Potter, i at firz tot the plan already pushed to later date, so was actualli goin to go Lavender wif Jenmey to make her IC... but in the end i went for the movie...
sry baby,i still feel reli bad bout it x(
den afta emovie went Westmall there find Messiah after his guitar lessons...
den we all headed to my hse there again... hanged at playground and talked of life =.= zzZ....

Wednesday, i went to Mess hse there to dye my hair... the color turned out nice, but i realize it dun reli suit me...regrets.
den later in the evening went to find Tingsheng at Westmall...

Thursday, got work later... but i tink i dun wanna go le...no mood. yuP...
anywayz, b4 i end diz entry... i found diz picture... quite long ago... tat tym playin at Toys'R'Us take de... LoL. a random pic. here is it is =)

you leave me SPEECHLESS

2005-11-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

I fell in love with this song by THE VERONICAS not long ago
yuP. those hu haven hear b4, shood go chek it out
imma upload unto my blog soon anywayz. but fiRz. here's the lyrics. i totalli love it. itz sweet n meaningful =D
Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you
I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

can i get ur hand to write on?

2005-11-16T15:03:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Jalan Bahtera Camp =)!!!
Tired sia!!! hahaax
i try tu summarize it as short as possible baHx...
Sunday nite i pack my stuff den stayed up till like 5am Monday morning den went to sleep... woke up around 8plus den rushed to school in a cab
reached school see like everyone there le, den im like the last person...hahaax, but the camp trainer-aka-instructor neva scold me... he called AMIR, a rojak man (chinese+indian+malay)
oH yaH...wtf...my class only got a total of FIFTEEN ppl show up...LOL... 37 ppl and lesser dan half came...obviously we were the most pathetic group of all, wif a strength of only 15 ppl (x,X)
den Amir made us write our names on a stickytape den tape on our shirt, Pei En wrote "MAY =)" and Amir tot i was "MAYU" =.=!!!
we took bus to Jalan Bahtera campsite... there we were taught songs for the campfire
i loved HOKEY POKEY XD!!!!
after tat we went for dunno-wad Orient-???? walk... walk damn mthafkin far!!! o.O, like covered around 4km in total...well, tat was wad it FELT like!
den along the way, we picked up dry leaves and twigs, cuz we were gonna need them to cook our "SURVIVAL COOKING" later, as in cook our own food wif our own fire...sounds lime FUN rite? xcept tt we cooden start the fire as easily as it sounded
all the AMIR fault!
other classes use BIG branches, den he leh?
asked us pick SMALL twigs.
make small fire.
cook small food
but we in the end, last 10min managed tu cook the noodles, den add sardine tu it den eat... end up we had more food dan we needed. so, not bad la =) even tho sum of the ashes from the burnt leaves got enter the food, but we were damn hungry la, so it dint matter.
den at nite took veri long queing up to take a shower, i bathed damn fast loRx! whEex, so proud of myself =), 2330 was lites-out.
damn hard tryin tu sleep cuz sleepin of wooden boards, den the ass there fkin pain. haha.
Tuesday morning at 6am wake up, we were made to do diz fkin "YOGA" and it hurts like hell... the camp director is like MAD or sth, made us do tt kinda stuff, can make guys "lei s, " den gals can almost "ku si" le.
after eat le, our class 3E went to do our High Elements de thing...made us cross the "broken bridge" ting... Teresa power sia... one of the fiRz few to try... den i tot she veri the "gu niang" so she wood give up half-way or sth, but she made it tru the whole thing, without even screaming or anytin. hahaa... she muz be filin alot of "chen jiu gan" now...LOL.
den my turn le, i so excited...Brian told the guys he predicted i wood scream =.= ... but i was lik tinkin "even Teresa can do maHx, a little height cant scare me la"...den i so enthu, climb up the ting veri fast.. but reached the platform to cross the "bridge" le... i went all wobbly....
i screamed
LOL!
i finalli took another step.
i screamed AGAIN...
repeat that same process alot more tyms, and i finalli made it over the bridge!
also wanna thank the 3B gals for cheering me on!!! =)!!! HAHA...
so it's like i screamed for EVERY step i made =.=
Brian muz be sum kinda psychic? o.O...anywayz, his turn he oso got "scream" la, but in a guy way... HA! so i dun feel so bad le =)
den after tat, we went to do the water stuff...
KAYAKING!!! whEeeeex!!!
the trainer say MUST gal wif guy kayak tugether. den our class got like only a pathetic number of FOUR boys, wif ELEVEN gals. so needed to pair up wif 3H oso
i pair wif Bri den at firz we were like kayaking reli fast la, even tho neva row tugether left-right-left-right in coordination...was damn fun, knocking intu other ppl...HAHA!!!
den trainer let us go like 2 rounds around the "Geylong" (wadeva its spelled)
den the geylong actualli got alot of dogs...and dey can SWIM!
den bri like bcum lazy sumtymz dun wan row, den i oso lazy maHx, so we end up have water-fite (but neva capsize, thank god. trainer say inside water got jellyfish...eeeyer!!!), den dunno why end up rowing near the geylong there there, den suddenly got one dog appear, it look like it wanna jump unto our kayak, den i scared maHx, so i screamed. so malu. other ppl lookin at me machiam i retard sia x(
me and B eventualli like the last team to reach back to "shore"...zzZ. see la. cannot left-right-left-right properly. aiyO.
after that, we did RAFTING... our raft was built reli nicely, thanx tu Shawn
but once inside the water, it juz screwed up
oh well.
after the Raft, we went to do the FLYING FOX... so happy la can? i like my whole life rite, got go camp b4, but wen it was gonna be my turn to FLY
it rained. so suay
den now finalli got my chance. wHeeex...so fun...
after FLYING, i did the dunno-wad "coming down from the wall" thing... arrgH, i buay song diz one instructor, den go say him "niao" loudly, den make he buay song me oso, den gimme attitude sia... haha. nvm. childish idiot. i dint pay 71 bucks for tat =)
after all tat, we all finalli went to MUDWALK!!!!!!! YAYY...LOL
we walked long long road came to mud there, at fiRz no one wanna go down, except the four boys, dey went in den wanted tu throw mud at us gals... den the Amir like mad liddat, enter den row himself in the mud, den wanted to pull us in
den actualli i wanted to escape.. den dunno why i SLIPPED and FELL... stupid me, den i kana dragged intu the mud by my feet by Amir =.=!!! den mud all over my ass. LOL
Brian n Mao Lung even more mad, dey had mud-fight!
den end up Brian head-to-toe covered in mud! LOL! like so cute loRx, u see him like one oolu-oolu boy, can oni see the eyes and the teeth... HAHA... den i try not to look at his face, cuz like damn funny la can! the face like so innocent liddat, machiam got doggy eyes o.O
most of us left our shoes in the mud and left
Amir brot us to a POND along the road back... the water damn muddy but it helped alot =) den he say we go BEACH firz b4 go back camp.. we were so happy la!
but alamak... the road there... without shoes, pain like fuck!
i was like one of the laz tu reach the beach there, cuz walkin kinda slow... den i tot i saw my class maHx... cooden see the faces... den i juz neva tink den anyhow run in and JUMP intu the water...
o.O
turn out it was 3H de class, not my class... so malu can!
den inside the water, washed clean le... PeiEn kana bitten by a crab or sth =.=... den she n Teresa DASHED outta the water onto the sands...
den about tu tat tym, Pei En discovered her feet there kana cut two big slashes-look-alike cuts... den i see her like wanna cry liddat, den i kinda got scared la, cuz see her so happy all the tym, den i tell her not tu cry, den i carried her from the beach back to campsite on my back... can take it as the workout in the gym tt i've had missed baH =)
den campfire nite tym... it wasnt tat nice, i cooden feel the SPIRIT (noe wad i mean?)
but last part wen needed to dance to HOKEY POKEY, Messiah come find me den we both go find Jenmey at 3B area there... i got damn high la, i tiink i yell the song out even louder dan the trainer
den we den moved to 3D class area there, cuz dey play HOKEY POKEY again, den waH! can clap n dance til so happy n high... LOL. i suddenly feel like im sum kinda get-high-drug. oolala.
ppl were lookin at us tho we went mad... HAHA. heck.
Wednesday morning, finalli tym to go back le... dun wanan tok much about it. we had the same fked up YOGA again. and ate our last meal. den around 10 we left the place... kinda felt sad
but i wooden have it any other way =)
reached school le, Teresa go find Ck, and Mess went off wif the Brian clique
i go wif Jenmey dey all. den eat at Coffee United. me Jenmey Clement and Poh Han hanged there quite long and chat n laugh, chat n laugh lik non-stop. LOL

around 3pm, i reached home le. TIRED.

you*'re my ultimate

2005-11-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

here comes the pictures!!! =D

usinside K-box, juz b4 we got HIIIIGGH

on our way to Marina Bay

while waiting for the rest to come at Marina Mrt Station

and this, my beloved bafday gal JENMEY NG!!! wif her Baby Taz cake... looks juz like her hoRx? hEex.

BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!

2005-11-10T02:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BAFDAY JENMEY and MELVIN!!!
7th Nov Monday, i was LATE for sch
and UNLUCKY.
went to find my class in Physics lab, den so qiao meet the gay V.P Phor there... den he find me everywhere got problem. from my nails all e way tu my bra color.
chibye, i explained le tt everytin else in washin machine...wad he wan me do? wear my mother's bra come mehx? sissy whore
den he bring me down tu his office, den kaobei tu me bout my diz year de record.
say wad, each late comin counted as one offence, den now under my name diz year got 50 offence...zzZ,dint noe it got tt fked up.
den he say wad, dun wan gimme chance le wanna transfer me out of FHSS, siao. never hear b4 ppl go sch late den will kana kicked by school.
den he made me stand outside his office, til my mother came tu school. oKee, den he was like scaring my mom sayin machiam my late comin equals to murder liddat. mom was fked up la. i was fked up tuu. sissy brain washer, make mom dun let me stay up tuu late anymore.
den i broke down la, zzZ, den cry cry so long den he was like "oKee,one laz chance."
gayassbitch.
8th Nov Tuesday, i was not late =)
den afta school went tu Causeway Point wif Theodore ChoonSoon Weiren and PeiXin to buy JENMEY's 15th bafday prezzie =D
we end up buying all the Baby taz stuff from minitoons...LoL,jen love tt character tu bits sia,actualli look quite lik her =)
den after CWP, me n Theo went tu JurongWest find Maolung Brian dey all, at Geypoh. but end up we reach there 7+ so no tym tu play...Hahaax,den Theo was so sadded x(
we all around 8+ head home on 99, den i halfway seriously need tu pee-pee...den cannot stand it le, got off the bus at Hong Kah East there tu pee =)
Theo Maolung Melvin oso came off same stop, den we 4 sat inside Mac tu chat chat chat loRx...den dint noe chat so long,bcum 10+ le,den we all chiong back home.
9th Nov Wednesday, jen n melv de bafday. we all ytd no tym buy card,so i laz min in class MADE a card for jen x)...alot of effort woRx!
den the stupid Brian n Theo kept makin fun say i dunno how tu spell BIRTHDAY,cuz i wrote BAFDAY...wtf la,my style aka habit k?
den afta school stayed back awhile tu play bsball, den dunno how the fuck i ended up auditioning for sum film crap b4 i went home...idiot loRx, i did it 4 fun, but i hav a filin i mite regret 4 a long long long tym...o.O
i rushed back home got changed, den i headed tu Jurong Entertainment there de K-BOX find Jen,Teresa,Carol,Val and Huizhen...den i chose the old song "BOOM BOOM BOOM" by Vengaboys,den dunno y afta tt we all got so HIGH la...i tink is cuz i started yelling the songs instead of sing,thank god the gals played along...we ended up jumpin on the seats and shouting like crazy...it was mad,FUN!!!
ShinHwee came in last 15min liddat...den we all wan go settle bill le, wtf...it was lik $17bucks each person...chibye,dey write down there "$9.60"...den end up PLUS PLUS PLUS til $17...den see the fkin receipt
TIBITS (the small fking bowl of fked up nuts" : 4 bowls : $20
CB!!! wtf.LOL. one fkin bowl for 5bucks...wad a ripoff...it made us all pissed la. grrrR...
we left the K-Box den go find Theodore Weiren and Choonsoon... den we together go JE MRT,meet Arron Hanxiang and Tingsheng, den we from there took train of Marina... at Marina there waited for Mess, Dolly Karyin n Sokyin tu arrive....we gals took alot of pictures while waiting...Hhahaax,shall upload em afta Carol send tu me bah =)
Mess came firz,followed by e 3 gals...we all headed tu Marina there eat Steamboat...den it started rainin b4 we left...poor Teresa almost of her juz-rebonded-today hair wet,but i lent her my blazer tu cover her head firz...=)
MAY SAVED THE DAY
Teresa de new haircut abit weird now...but NICE , different le...machiam sum kinda Egyptian cha bo...hahaax...nice la.
we all eat finish le, den cut the cake tt Shinhwee bought (guess wad, the cake was Baby Taz oso...LOL)... den around 10+ liddat, we all headed home...yuP

hope later morning i wont for school bahz *fingers crossed*...
btw, diz song CAN I GET A WITNESS...sucha happy song hoRx? muz enjoy it k...so cute, make my mood happy lik hell =)

listen to me.

2005-11-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

LoL... dint reli updated =x in the previous post
31st Nov Monday, i went school. siaaned. forgot wad i did oso.
and yah. wad i rmb is tat i went home tt day and accidentalli washed the right side of my contact lense down the basin. WTF!!! LoL....$100+ down the drain, juz liddat x(
erm. 2nd Nov Wednesday. i no mood so skipped school. mom let me. she's juz reli angelic nowadays x)... she wanted me to pon school on monday tuu, but i still went sia! =)... den in the afternoon go find Mess at westmall. he got himself sort of "suspended"...gawd.
den we at WM saw ChoonSoon Theodore n Weiren, den hanged there awhile. den after tt me n Mess go JurongEast find Brian dey all. watched FLIGHTPLAN. weird sia the movie
3rd Nov Thursday. woke up in the afternoon. went tuition. den after tuition went to find Jenmey Theodore and ChoonSoon at Gekpoh. i made one chibye hair extension there. the color rocked. but it was like shyt!

den we eat at Mac le, go find Weiren den play bsball at his hse there. LoL... never play til so fun before sia. esp wif ChoonSoon, hahaa... everytym kana bullied by us. no lah, is actualli cuz his specs keep falling off... den he play without his specs. like gong kia. he jump only after the ball pass him =.=

den me, i wear only the left side contact lense den play. LoL. den dunno why, like can play better tt way o.O!
went home ard 9+
4th Nov Friday. i went to school.
WAS NOT LATE
but erm, during breaktym, we all went Hong Kah East there eat Mac. but never go back for DnT... den after school den finished den went back. took our bags den zhao le
i went together with ChoonSoon Theodore and Weiren, we cooden tink of anywhere to go, so in the end last min decide come over my hse.
i cooked sth for em eat =) by MYSELF
den Choonsoon went home firz, and Theo n WR stayed back tu watch Russell Peters de comedy.
after tt i went Clementi arcade find Jenmey Huizhen n Valerie
Hz n Val went home firz, den me n Jenmey pei me go make a pair of monthly contacts.
den i pei her go her house there, give out the FHSS OPEN HSE flyers. LOL

den after done le, went tu find PeiXin Theo n Weiren. played bsball. fun fun fun. =)
went home ard 10+
5th Nov Saturday. went tuition. den after tuition at nite went Sentosa wif my family watch the stupid Fountain den go home le. zzZ

6th Nov Sunday. went tuition. after tuition find my sister. den we go Jurong East there cut hair. her hair finalli not shyt le. den i dunno WTF went wrong wif me la. i siao cha bo go ask the person gimme straight fringe above eyebrow...LOL... now like retard sia. arrrgH. oh wello.

I think i .........

2005-11-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

call me outdated or wad fuck... but im sooo in love wif this song from FULL HOUSE OST...hEex
i see the translation of the song...damn meaningful and sweet la. to me,at least.
I refused to believe that it could be so
there's no way that I'm in love with you,
I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy,
that I must be feeling lonely,
but I cannot hide it anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you,without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be, I was unaware,
but now I can see that your presence
have delved deeply into my heart.

We are not meant for each other,
and being friends is the best thing for us,
there isn't a single thing we have in common,
so I claimed there's no way we can be lovers,
but I don't want to make excuses anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you,without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be, I was unaware,
but now I can see that your presence
have delved deeply into my heart.
why didn't I know that it was you,
why couldn't I see it when it was right in front of me,
it was beside me all along,
but only now can I see love.
sometimes, life juz sux tu the core. makes u tink god is juz out tu make u fuck up.
imagine goin tru a period of pain n torture, only tu end up falling back into square one again. the veri thing tt u tried tu run away from.

itz like... u noe, u pay a hitman to kill ur enemy for u. u wasted lik LOTS of money on it. in the end, the hitman kill halfway nia. ur enemy in the end still alive....itz like u wasted ur money for wad FUCK????
...not relevant...i noe =.=

heretic

2005-10-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

oMg... 9 days neva update le... hmmmx
Saturday, Dolly's bafday, =), me Mess Ting met Dolly Teresa Sokyin Karyin Carol dey all at Bugis Junction, den we gals went tu pai neoprint fiRz =)...stupid machine so small, 6 of us crammed inside...but fun la. =)

den Dolly n Sokyin left firz, Tingsheng soon left tuu, cuz got work...den me 3sa Carl n Ky went Bugis street there, 3sa bought her jacket... den at evening tym, we went tu Dolly hse, bbq =)
den the food was nice =) we even played games around the table using the food as punishment. fun la. =)

den afta tt, afta Dolly cut her cake (we almost had a cake fite...stupid Mess loRx! he start it...LOL, but i avoided the cake...me n Mess also had cake-eating competition which was "eeewww" tu other ppl..xP...oH well), we had this game, which consisted of "criminal","police","bodyguard","doctor" n "town ppl" LOL... den me n Mess turn tu be criminals, WE KILLED EVERYONE!!! WHOOOX!!!! dunno la, was so happy!!! HAHA!!!!! thanx tu our acting la "police" neva suspected itz us. LOL
den everyone left le, i pei Jenmey ton the nite... we went tu JP fiRz den i asked ppl help us buy beer, den me Jen n Troy walked back tu Troy hse there...btw. beer SUCKS! eeew. i only finished 3/4 of the damned can... den we wasted tym under sum block, den it started raining...2am plus le, Troy wanna go home le...den i see Jen oso quite tired...so she came my hse tu sleep later, so around 3plus went home,...Mom was pissed la, she wanted me tu be back by 12actualli X)
den Jenmey so good, see my table so messy, she help me clear until damn neat la...so everytin finish le, we around 5am den sleep...
den around Sunday morning 10am plus, Jen wanna go home le, i sent her tu bustop there, den i walked back home, den slept tru til the evening...and i also reformatted my com tt day..sadded, all the songs n pictures all GONE!...but it was pathetic la, cooden even STARTUP for fuck sake...so bo bian lorx, reformat. sad.
Monday, actualli dint wanna go school sia...Teresa told me the nite b4 tt she wasnt goin.
den Brian the next day lie tu me say everyone else got go except me, so i rushed tu sch...plus, i tot we were goin tu the ZOO = )
i reached sch at like 8.40am =x LoL... den juz in tym b4 the class left...i den see, so many ppl neva go sia,Teresa oso not there... Bri bluff me!!! hmpH!... summor we were goin BIRD PARK. not ZOO... oH well.
den wtf, Bird Park there, tcher let us free roam, we went around teaching parrots how tu say "Cheebye"...but dey oni noe how tu say "Byebye"...stupid sia. LOL... den we guys like walked around n around, up and down the whole fking place looking for KFC (which we all tot was inside)... den it turned out tu be wad Yuan Zhang described as a "fairy tale"...fk loRx... so hungry le, den the only place tt sells proper food is their bird-named-cafes... sell coke for nearly 3bucks! wtf.
so we neva eat loRx... den Brian went tu feed the birds at this dunno which part of the place. damn funny la. all the birds all flock onto him, den clawedd him and stuff, Bri was there lik holdin e bird food den shoo-ing the birds .LoL

den the whole ting finish le, bus took us back tu school, left only chinese lesson, den tcher play sad sad song themed after FRIENDSHIP n stuff... den fk, i got emotional -.-
den after sch, me ChoonSoon Theodore Weiren went JP... CHOONSOON treat us eat La Mian!!!
whEex... at the 3rd floor there the stupid chinese lookin restaurant...LoL... den we ordered 4 different type of la mian...the bowl fking big sia.
i order Beef de... den Choonsoon say he neva try beef b4, den me n theo convinced him try...den he was lik wanting tu hav more...even wanted tu order one more beef de, say wad "to make up for the 14years of beef tt i missed out on"...LOL! he say til so sad sia. HAHA. den i eat finish le, still got some left. den choon tried tu search for beef inside my bowl =.= LoL... n theo helped him

den after tt we left the place le, n Choon n theo still buy sum stupid spicy chicken tu eat. Fei si them! LoL. eat eat eat.

den we sit at Kopitiam there eat icekachang...and i finalli managed tu get a pic of weiren!!! he damn smart sia, everytym can avoid the camera. LoL

den we went basement walk ard. Guardian there selling sum dunno wad spectacles, stupid sia. the specs is not glass de. is lik one whole solid ting wif alot of small holes. den one of their designs look lik a fly de eyes.. LoL...
presenting Theodore to demonstrate tt =)
<> den we hanged a while more, den went home le
Tuesday, went tu Marina Square wif Teresa Carol Karyin n Annabel go look for this job at Changing Appetites.. den Carol n Annabel went in to ask firz... while me Teresa n Karyin went tu walk walk ard firz.

den after Carol n Annabel come out le, me 3sa n Ky went in, we ate firz den asked cuz damn hungry. breakfast n lunch both haven eat. den we fill up diz form lorx...
den after finish le. Annabel n Carol went home firz... den me Teresa n Ky went tu Bugis there cuz Ky wanted tu buy sth. den go there le cooden find e rite ting she wants... den i went off tu find Mess n Ting le...
but wtf la,i wan go le, den started pouring heavy bitched rain. make me wet from head tu toe. arrgH. den LoL... stupid Mess, he dunno the location himself. he told me Marina Sq den he was at Marina Bay =.=
den itz lik i tot Marina Sq so i went City hall le. den i told Mess Marina sq is not at Marina Bay, so he making his way tu City H. den Jiahui called n say the steamboat ting is at Marina Bay not Sq =.=, so we 3 made our way back tu Marina Bay...zzZ
den at there le, got alot of 3D de ppl, den got diz van transport us tu diz place tu eat... den me n mess helped Tingsheng tu cook, cuz he lik lil' brother ma, only in chaarge of eating=.= hahaax, haven 15yrs old la, can be pampered =x
LoL... den i at there, Mess asked me go draw Kokmeng the eyes, cuz i sumtymz help Mess draw his eyeliner maHx...den Kokmeng wanted tu look lik mess, den i draw for him, but he keep moving n screaming...den in the end turned out like

this...LOL! den he was lik little kid keep complaning...Hhaaa
den after eat, we all go play arcade. oKee, me n Mess played para para(so long neva play le! siiiaaan ah!!! i wanna go CLEMENTI!!! sum1 pei me go!!!!) while the guys played LAN. =/
den after tt play racing, i won the guys... but i Auto la, while dey manual...but still, wtf = ) I WON!!!!
den play finish le, gonna leave le. waiting for bus...Chong Huan helped me n JH take pic, he take til so blur, but nvm la. quite nice =)

den we meet SongQuan n Yiling le, take train go Esplanade...JH left firz...den left only me Mess Ting Troy Kokmeng Shengkiat Ziming n Songquan in the end (Eve n Yiling left firz)...
den we juz wasted our tym at the dunno wad river there, me n Mess singing away tu our Mp3... den around 11+ we left... Ziming Sq n Mess take their own bus, den me Ting Troy n Kokmeng n Shengkiat took 97 go jE...
here's me n Kokmeng (witout the eyeliner ting anymore...LOL)

n here's Troy, da sao ye on his long bus ride.

den me n Tingsheng took the last 333bus home... yuPx, around 12.30am reached home
Wednesday, i went iceskating wif my class den ppl... supposed tu go at 1pm, but i woke up 2.30pm...WHOOPX.
den i improved alot baHz...only fell down lik one tym =)
den waH! Precious skate til damn pro sia... she got training maHx...
den Precious noe diz chiobu skater, Brian wanted tu take her number, but got rejected...awww!! SADDED!
den itz lik, i juz got there den Brian wanted tu go le, den Shawn oso wanna go, den make MaoLong oso wanna leave...den chain effect made me fked up. LOL... i threw tantrum? dunno wassup wif me sia, nowadays feeling kinda edgy...but oKee la, in the end Brian dey all neva leave so early... dey pei me leave same tym instead... sorry guys =)
den good sia, dey pei me play JE de arcade oso... den me n Shawn dance DDR...Hhaa...den Brian oso wanna try dance...but tt stupid Shawn anyhow press den choose until so difficult, make us fail at fiRz stage! arrgH!
den Brian went off tu his brother de Bafday party le, left me Mao n Shawn, we played there de LAN loRx... den afta tt went home = )

i stop le fiRz baHz...entry tuu damn long le... i next tym den update Thursday n Friday's entry =) hEex.

imma TOYS'R'US! .again.

2005-10-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

hEex...here's the a picture i took on tuesday wen hanging wif ChoonSoon n Theodore...
the same day tat i bought my beloved baby milk bottle (comes complete with the NIPPLE SUCKING tingy)... i've used it for two days now. i wanna give it a name... i shall call it BeBe aka B.B (itz actualli the name of diz reli cute dog xP)
i took the pic in Fairprice at Westmall there de round round de mirror =D, Choon & Theo go try tu hide in a corner, tink their picture wont be taken...WAHAHA

now let's see, i've been late on Tuesday, n the next day (wednesday) and the next next day (thursday aka TUday)...tues n wednesday i neva go report =.= cuz i got sick of writing the damned school rules...i can almost memorize everytin le! in fact, i tink i do! =.=
den everytym go in see the Govind guy, he gimme hard tym... so i juz go straight back tu class loR
den tuday i decide tu report cuz i reached school at 8am.
Govind gave me double punishment...grrR! LoL...he complains tu Mr Goh tt my attendence has been POOR.
WRONG!
i juz cum late, i dint SKIP school. so pls. get tt rite. = )
den he say he almost wanted tu bring me tu principal, but let me off one more tym... grrR,if only Mdm Oen had died during her operation or sth (sorry tu those NTSS ppl hu ACTUALLY loved tt lady =/)... and stupid Phor everytym threaten to transfer school
yadi yada,bitch = )
tuday lessons tym so sian. i listen my Mp3 den keep talkin to Teresa...hahaax...den during Chinese lesson tym...our chinese tcher damn lame sia... let us listen funny songs =.= got one called wad, "AH BEN AH BEN"
LOL
den Brian, Theo, Shawn n Mau Long in class sing the background music for the songs...machiam Four-Man-Choir...LoL...reli funny sia dey!
den after school, me Messiah ChoonSoon n Theo went Jurong Point... cuz Choon wanna buy collar-shirts for his job. yuP... den we fiRz go tu Mac to eat. i bout HAPPY MEAL = )
den got one snoopy toy...eeeyer! the lady bluff me, she call it "the flying tingy"...cannot fly one! hmpH!
den the Choon disgusting sia, he go mix those stupid sauces tugether, form one kinda new CHEMICAL...power sia he. me Mess n Theo see le wanna puke, he still dare eat. wah seh. Clap clap.
den we go 77th Street, i chose diz white shirt wif brown dots de for Choon... den we walked ard JP... end up enter TOYS'R'US! whEex! den we there had fkin fun sia...got alot of pictures, but i put sum up fiRz cuz tuu many...

diz is em, playin hulahoop...LOL...at fiRz kana scolded by TOYS'R'US de ppl, say cant play there...den we all go another spot play = D

dey buy baby milk bottles tuu! tu pei me drink at school...wHeeex!! = ) sweet sia dey!

hey! look! Spiderman show middle finger sia... take tat Joker! xP!

hahaax...dun have tu be GIRLS to be PRINCESSES...rite guys? LOL!
now...here's the ending for now.. it's a story about an TOY ORGY PARTY!!! xP...hahaax... Poor Bubbles, kana finger fucked by Blossom and need tu blowjob Spongebob
o.O!

WAHAHAH...LoLx...to their fans,no offence sia = )... got more pictures... next tym den put...gtg = )

N.E.O.P.R.I.N.T.S mania

2005-10-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

Quite long dint update... yaH, actualli, i did TRY to update, but everytym i was like halfway through it, the I.E just disappears! with my ENTRY!!!
alright, Thursday, after finish Chinese Listenin Compre, me Teresa n Mess went town... i wore the pants tat i bought from Grace...yUpx baby, thanx again XD
yuPx, took sum neoprints there

n Mess bought diz matured lookin shirt
= ) i tink he's growing out of his Punk-surf boy look bah, hahaax
den ard 6pm, Mess went home le, den left me n Teresa, we took...more neoprints! =D

oKee, den me n Teresa made our way tu Clementi, we wanted tu watch EUROPEAN GIGOLO...which is M18, den i tot Empress the cinema would be quite relac, i even tried tu bribe the aunty (now i tink bout all i said juz tu watch the movie, feel so malu...hahaa), in the end we end up watch GOAL...oH wello. played abit of arcade (so damn long neva play le) den went home after tat.
Friday, Carol n Karyin jio me go out... i was late. oh wello.
den we made our way tu MARINA SQUARE (dint noe got diz place until tt day..haha), den Ky bought diz pants, n Carol bought diz shirt... i had tu encourage em tu buy, cuz dey damn dilema tt tym...hahaax.
den we went to town...and tadaa! NEOPRINTS! LoLx!

LoLx, i've been tryin kinda hard tu tink of new poses, but only came up wif the BUAY SONG n PISSED OFF looks, which i've been TRAINING with the gals how tu pose...hEex...teresa doin quite well XD... Karyin is kinda camera shy xP hEex... nvm, still can try summor next tym...Hahaax
Monday (ytd) went town again...(LOL,tell me about it), i was late in meetin Teresa, arrgH, sorry sorry, den Princess cried cuz of tt.. so guilty sia X(
den we went Far East fiRz ting, took...can guess ma?... NEOPRINTS! (=.=)

Hahaax, the bunny tingy was another pose, it got tat "look in the sky to watch out for bird shit" tat kinda vibe...LOL
den Mess came wif his fren Guo Quan =D, i sent Teresa off tu MRT tu go find CK dey all fiRz...den later me Mess n GQ go walk ard try tu find Messiah's jeans...he bought diz brown color de...not bad...nice!
yuP, den we three go watch THE WIG NC16 (dun wry gals, im watchin it wif u again), GQ go buy the ticket (he younger dan both of us sia! haven 15 years old...but look so much older...NO FAIR sia!)...den me n Mess go play sum parapara n DDR firz cuz the movie an hour later den show...LoLx,GQ lik so shocked tu see us play, hahaax
den me n Mess play finish tired go buy ice-cream...i saw this TRIPLE CHOCOLATE flavour, den got EXCITED =.= den GQ keep make fun say i childish...wtf? LOL... den Mess n i take veri long choose the flavour, the icecream man lik pissed liddat...hahaax...den the stupid Mess,juz bought the icecream, he lick like two tyms,den the icecream fell off the cone onto the floor (itz lik those cartoon where the kid drops his icecream n cries..juz tat Mess was laffin instead of cry =.=) den the icecream man so kind! give him FREE one more...LOL!
den near movie tym le, muz go in, den at check point there, me n Mess were lik tryin tu ACT COOL tu look as 16 as possible (not tt we dun...well, juz play safe mah =D) den the more mess try tu act cool, the more he lik wanna laugh =.=!!!...but LOL, the person dint even care, juz told us which theatre tu go inside nia...den me n Mess still at there lik idiots tryin tu make a cool face =.=...LOL!
the movie was gruesome n scary at sum parts loR... den i kana scold by Mess for screamin...HMPH!... den movie finish le...go home. sleep =D
Tuday got back results for A MATHS n CHINESE... hahaax... believe it or not...i got 37/80 for A.Maths at firz, den MR GOH (bless him) helped me add marks till bcum 40!...whEex!
better yet is Chinese la, neva expected tu get lik 49.5%!!! WHOOO!!!! PASS!!! oKee, so overall neva pass, but still...wtf la... hahaax... muz thank eddie tu tellin me Listenin Comphre de answer...xie xie!! xie xie!!
after sch hanged with Choon Soon n Theodore at Westmall there... i feel sadded tu tink tat any of the guys tat came from 2B laz yr (which means same class wif me 3years le)will get retained...so sad til wanna cry sia...sobx! ...LOL
had a fun tym, yuPx, den i help Theo choose handbag for a certain sum1..ooolala...

oKee, i end the entry here le baHz...if not get tuu long le... hEex.

i dun wanna grow up! imma TOYS'R'US!

2005-10-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! Exams finalli over le... tomorrow still got Chinese Listenin Comphre tho... but hu actualli gives a fuck?... oh! no one... so sad!
Then after DnT paper tuday, which i totally got sooo WASTED in, im like at there, pretendin tu be interested in tat paper (basicalli bcuz itz an End-Of-Year) while im falling half-asleep,
i actually wanted tu go with the boys of my class, go play LAN, n learn how tu play DOTA again... but then, i last min found out tat this dumb-ass-bitch (doesn't havta be a SHE), was goin tuu, n it totalli ruined my mood...
I was at a loss on where tu go, Teresa had her own ting on, tho she asked me tu follow her n Lydia go jP, i juz cooden decide... but it the end, i went tu find Messiah dey all... found em at 3B, we all left tugether...
but at the school gate i saw Jenmey dey all, den decided tu follow em instead, cuz i was the only gal hanging wif Mess dey all during tt tym, n it felt kinda weird...
The gals wanted tu go Swensen tu eat dessert... we all went tu JP, go Swensen order Earthquake...LoL, stayed there quite abit, it was lik reli empty, den we 7 gals, Me Jen Karyin Peixin HuiZhen Valeria n XinHui were like makin a mess out of the place, playin with the dry ice(pictures in Jen's blog), and just makin alot alot of noise XD
Den we all walked ard the whole of JP, juz killin tym... den Jenmey dey all made me play arcade, thank god i got my homeclothes(brot it along tu play LAN), saw PeiYing dancing Parapara there, she dance not bad, den i ask her pei me dance one round XD
den after tat, me Jen Huizhen PeiXin n Val went tu TOYS'R'US tu juz play around, very long neva do tt le...was so fun!!!! Karyin n Xinhui went off tu do their own stuff... we totalli like thrashed the whole place or sth, we spent nearly around TWO FRIKKIN HOURS in there...LOL! making poses,taking pictures with every lame thing we can (i shall upload sum of the pix ontu my Frenster...easier tu upload tu Frenster den blog,less ma huan =/ )
Then, we all FINALLY left the Toy shop ting, go n walk around summor... den went Mac tu eat XD... i bought my HAPPY MEAL! yayyy!!! and i got a HAPPY-purple color-PLAY DOH-TOY!!! YAYYY!!!
Den about to leave tat tym saw diz group of New Town Sec de ppl, saw diz gal, saw her on frenster b4, den like suddenly see her in real life, felt so happy, oso dunno why...she's juz sooo frikkin cute la!...oKee,so she's short-skirted and proud, but she's cute!!! so hu cares? XD

went home le, den finalli can come online after so long...ttz why veri long neva update...hEex... tml i tink im goin town baHz...whEex!!!

Listen To Your Heart

2005-09-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

I'm a SINNER
I am FLAWED
but my intentions were never evil
i NEVER wanted things to turn out this way
I may never be forgiven
We might forever be apart
Still, i am SORRY
Sometimes i dont even trust myself
I think I've fallen by the wayside now
Listen to your heart... there's nth else you can do
I already had my English paper n Chinese paper le... English was oK... Chinese paper One was NEAR oK... English oral was fun like fuck!... Chinese Oral was a motherfucker. kana tested by LCB ( Lao Chee Bai) aka Mdm Zhang, H.O.D of Chinese... so XIN KU... stuck with her there for 10min plus, let her kum my lan jiao, while i try to read the funny words called CHINESE WORDS on my oral paper. arrrgH!!!... Wahahaax... she kum so long, i oso never shoot anytin... lousy de she~ xP
I was feeling rather down not long ago, now im crappin rubbish like fuck, Teresa told me she upset she eat alot, i thought it was dumb, but i just now kept eatin... shyt! liddiz sure veri soon i'll hit a scale of 50kg... DONT WAN!!!!

nth much to say...except "whEeex! my blog de music on again =D "... and yaH, just study hard... dun say i naggin. this is all for ur own good,kids = )

Gwa gwa jiao!

2005-09-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

today almost late for school... but i chionged through the school field and made it in the nick of time *clap clap*
den the whole day it was the usual same ol' shyt... lessons, teachers, work, trips-to-toilet... bla bla bla
Until it was DnT lesson tym, yaH, sumwhere around the ending of DnT lesson, i turned my head, and i tot an ANGEL flew past (sum of my frenz will noe wad im blabbering about)... oMg! so cute can?
My heart was beating left,right,up,down... and all over the place=.=
dunno why feel diz way... machiam i flying high X/ wHeeeex! i tink im just day-dreamin on and on... but still,it makes me happy,never feel diz way for a long long tym le, brings back tat little-giggly-girly-joy in me...hahahah!!!
Den afta tat had oral... quite easy la, talk bout Grandparents...hahaax,my Ah Gong n Ah Ma juz went back not long ago,so i did have sth practical tu talk about...
afta oral, went Mac' to STUDY wif Teresa n Jen ,but end up never study... eat finish le,saw Jiahui dey all come in, me Teresa n Jen decide go make prank fone call to a someone (heex), dunno la,everytym do diz kinda childish wu-liao ting,i feel so happy n giggly =.= ...
den around 6 went home le, yuPx... on the bus wif Teresa n Jiahui chat rubbish...neva been diz way for a long tym le...haiisH

stop here le, Exams are just a stone's throw away, get ur helmets ready my fellow arseholes! CHARGE! zzZ

Merry Go Round

2005-09-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

good lord, i finalli noe how tu make the font size bigger... X) *hip hip hooray*
hmmm, think veri soon i'm gonna havta change song le, one week plus play same song le, muz be gettin sian
oKee, tym tu update on the week that juz flew past.
monday, i pon sch, pei my fren Khine go town. watched LONGEST YARD, damn funny la. hahaa. den afta town went Jurong Point,cuz JiePei aka Gina (VER-gina..hahaha! jK ^^), wan me tu pei her, and i nth beta tu do anywayz
tuesday, i wasnt late for sch = ) and tu top it up, my form tcher (Miss Ong - reli cute lady tt has mood swings and reli nice boobs), asked me in morning assembly if i were late ytd, and i said "YES" XD
wednesday, Khine ask me pon sch again, but i said "nope! studies important!" = ) but i end up sleepin 3/4 of school lesson tym. den i afta sch pei him go shop at Bugis. arrgH! tat idiot promise will take neoprints,end in e end neva X(
thursday, sian, afta sch went tu eat PizzaHut wif Teresa n Jessica ...die la, this week neva go gym, summor eat pizza. "fei si wo men", den afta they two went tu their tuition, i went Messiah's hse, tu help him fix his com, and i end up "fixing" it...haiisH, thank god Mess angry but controlled his anger (can see he tried tu control la, if not i die le)
friday, surprise surprise, i went back home early X) den pei Mom n Ah Gong, n Ah Ma go Balastier there de Burmese Buddhist Temple... Ah Gong n Ah Ma tml goin back Myanmar le...sadded.
Tuday, was spose tu go n try out this survey job, but in e end neva... went tuition, den afta tuition meet Jenmey, Karyin n Choon Soon go J.E. Library go STUDY = ) ... i spent 3hours tryin tu understand 5pages of Chemistry. fuck its mother backside la. arrgH!!! i MUST do well for End Year... i tink i next week gonna pia my studies ALL THE WAY... yuP! liddat, den i can happy happy enjoy my holydays = )
zzZ,sum1's been goin ard taggin me n my frenz de blog. more irritating than the dengue fever tat is spreading now.
it's like tat bahz, wen one noes others cant give a damn bout one, one chooses tu try tu make em fked up. pathetic
comin out of the blue, givin us all "verdicts"...but dude, it isnt necessary (unless Government force u do diz bah) =D cuz u have the fkin rite tu remain silent, cuz nobody asked tu hear bout ur opinions.hahaa.
whoever u are, hope u are enjoying urself wif ur own little game. u can carry on playin by urself bah. everyone else tuu sensible n busy tu be bothered...zzZ

oKee everyone, nite nite XD, dun let the damned mosquitoes bite...u kana dengue le, even Mopiko cant save ur ass k =/

takes me backk tu the start

2005-09-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY.
LoLx,tuday damn tiring...zzZ
friday. late again. 3rd tym diz week. arrrgH. so much for puttin in so much effort tu hav good record...but i muzen giv up XD, stay few more weeks outta trouble den no need go for anymor counsellin sessions le...yiPee!

tuday at sch "celebrate" Lantern Festival...make dumb mooncakes...unless u're a reli hungry man tt hasnt eaten for the whole day,u wooden actualli enjoy it...but makin mooncake was fun laH...LoLx,me Mess n Teresa play ard,make mooncake usin our barehands,neva use glove...i did it tu give it the "touch"...but we neva wash our hands leHx...XP, den me n Mess go ard trickin ppl tu try our "dirty" mooncakes... den all Mess fot laH! go play throw mooncake at me...den i run after him...den end up havin our childish fite until i go dustbin,go take the dustbin cover den run after him wif it...i was usin it as a SHIELD loRx. den we all play until happy n sweaty,den dunno from where,the kbkb de Mrs Toh appeared...i juz stood there lookin at her,stumped,wif e cover in my hand,lik idiot liddat...den she made me parade around wif it...all the tu Staff Room and back...den kana brot tu Mr Govind (sian aH! see him morning tym,b4 recess,and after recess...den later still had tu see him after sch...wad a joyous life)
damn Toh,make use of me,make me do all her F&N cleanin up shyt...she see visitor den she act kind tu me,visitor gone le,den her bloody fangs all cum out.
sorta had a quarrell wif Govind tuday,wont go intu tt,i tink i already hai enuff ppl while dey tried tu help me le..thanx hoRx XD

Den afta sch, me n Teresa left sch 2getha,she go find her Chin Kiat,den me actualli on my way home,but saw sum commotion at void deck there,den see see loRx. free show =D.
i dunno la,the whole ting seems kinda comical in sum ways...LoL...life's liddat baHz. "no1's rite or wrong. but everyone juz gets fked up cuz dey choose tu...God's greatest screw-up in his creations is our dense minds" i guess. =/
anywayz,i end up follow Jen dey all go eat. Afta eat le,i went back home,quickly showered n got ready go Westmall find Messiah n Teresa. den ard 5+ reached,we 3 walked ard as we waited for Choon Soon n Tingsheng tu arrive at 6+,we pushed the time tu 6+ only cuz CS got NPCC,but tt idiot in the end neva show up.wtf.nvm. next year baHz. hmpH!
LoLx,den we 3 were lik goin ard tryin mooncakes n ba-gua`s... Teresa there kept laffin =.= i tink is cuz she scared xia suay baHz xP,oH wello...den Tingsheng fell asleep,so reached only at lik 8pm loRx...zzZ... we 4 took taxi go Bukit Batok Nature Park. den played at its playground there wif candles,laterns,n sparkies XD n sum other flammable stuff. d/w,we dint burn down the park ^_^

Afta sum tym,Brian YuanZhang JunJie n Disney came along. we all 8 ppl hanged there abit longer,juz play ard lik a bunch of asses.=.=
den Mess suggested walkin tru the "ulu ulu" part of the park... den stupid Brian,chickened out n pangseh us...hmpH,actualli nvm de la =D
end up only Me Teresa Mess n Ting go tru the mini "adventure" ourselves. we walked tru the dark wif 2 lanterns...sum parts of the walk was reli freaky, den summor my mum kept callin, she got freaked out wen i told her i was gonna do wad i was doin (lik wtf, hello? diz is NATURE. not Afghan or wadeva...zzZ), den we 4 finalli made it tru =D yayy!!!... den chionged out of the place...Teresa went back fiRz in cab. me Mess n Ting go find Brian dey all at nearby de Mac'...left only Brian n YZ there,Jie n Disney already went home... Brian n Mess took same cab left. Me Ting n YZ took same cab back home (cuz we 3 live at ard same area)...YZ pay the fare...LoL. came home le so tired. go com loRx...zzZ...tml go tuition..la la la...THE END

"believe me, its ALRIGHT. its so EASY afterall"